The story so far.

[iamthebodhi]

I'm falling deeper in love with adolescent power fantasies the closer I draw to the most dead environment I've ever felt in my life: adulthood. I fear sex. I hate money, passionately, and everything it represents. I hate those symbols of everything that I don't - and probably never will - have: SUVs, a big home in the suburbs, and a soft desk job I

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[greenfeathers]

"I want to punish the world. It all goes back to these twin-side mythologies I've erected for myself: I am Atlas, holding the weight of the world on my shoulders/I am Jacob, demanding God's due to me because motherfucker, you better pay up and you owe me. I mutter softly that I am Oppenheimer, I have become Death; I control it and I will sic it on you until you are as softly dead as I am and I feel."

ok... why? why are you those people? why can you compare yourself to them? you really make a point of setting yourself apart from society... why? you also mention about not having an SUV, big house in suburbia and a cubical job... do you really want that? you talk about that stuff like it means happiness, lol.

what would make you happy?

i don't mean to offend, or be insensitive, but its just been a running theme in most of your livejournals... tortured rebellious youth, yet you work at a pizza parlor and take AP classes, lol. just doesn't match up well.

i really am just curious though