i'm really unsatisfied with my life right now. i don't know what to do ( Read more... )

i only ever use this thing when i'm pissed or upset ( Read more... )

so yeah. i'm really fed up with a lot of shit at the moment ( Read more... )

this has been a not good day ( Read more... )

i find that my maturity has grown since the last familiar death that i've personally experienced. yes, it was sad then, but ethically, everything seemed fine. my parents did what they did, and it was fine. it still is. i can't bring back my thoughts from then. the deaths of my grandparents was so different... it took so long that their dying was ( Read more... )

i need to delete this account ( Read more... )

... i can't believe i'm doing this. yes, i said i would never write in this again, but i just need to write all this down. i don't care who reads it, i don't care who comments on it. if you do care to read it, or comment on it, all i ask is that you try to remove yourself from me as much as possible ( Read more... )

Place your order for the perfect guy!Part One: Basic DescriptionWhat would your perfect guy's name be?:lol.. simply scott How old would he be?:older than me, but not too much How far would he live from you?:close would be nice Does he drive?:that'd be extremely nice-- yeah If so, what kind of car does he have?:one that safely goes over 85 Is he a ( Read more... )

death seems to be the best hiding place from pressures and requests of perfection and altruistic ingenuine condolenses of "it is/will be ok" and "things always work themselves out"

if only there were a less permanent and destructive alternative.

well folks... after the coming of the new year, i will no long be updating this journal. its soul purpose will be to read the updates, during moments of seering boredom, of others, if that. i don't have time to describe to the internet all my troubles and cares. i have better things to do. so, if you ever want to get in touch with me, here will no ( Read more... )