I'm starting to think I need counseling.  I have some real needing issues.  I am apparently really needy.  I'm also horny.  I hate my life.  Shit sucks...shit meaning life.

you know, i like this girl...she has 3 kids though...i love the kids but...i mean...welll fuck why is it so hard to find a chick around here without kids?  Or even better one that isn't married...something something...darkside....I hate this...I've liked her for way too long and the sad part is that even though she doesn't have a livejournal i ( Read more... )

I HATE MYSELF I AM A DOUCHE
I AM WORTHLESS AND FUCKING STUPID

 So I have a myspace, like the rest of the world.  I don't use it and I just delete any comments that anyone puts on there.  I've posted some pictures but none of myself or people, just doodles and my AK-47 with it's pastel camoflage, it's only temporary til the tactical shit to replace the wood i ordered comes in.  It's a big joke.  Anyways I'll ( Read more... )

Life feels different.  It's starting to take effect.  Time is wasting and soon I will leave the comfort of the nest.  Life is still good but definitely different tonight.  Black Label Society fills my ears as my eyes become heavy.  Just killing time...Stillborn...  Soon things will be different.  Change can be good.  I'm out. 

My name is Jim. I've been called many things; Jim Jim, Big Jim, Jimmy, Jack..weird, Jimbo and so on and so on. One favorite, by many, has always been asshole. Often that one is said with "gusto" to say the least. I have just finished looking back on many old journal posts. I have been angry beyond memory. So angry that I didn't recognize the post ( Read more... )

So it's the new year. I can't really say I'm all that exited. I should be. I'm going to move to a new city far away soon. I'm going to be going to a technical school. I don't feel any better and I drank again. It had been almost a month and I drank. What if I'm not ready to move? I'm actually scared. Very much so. I'm out.

I hate myself...But why? I look at old journal entries; I think about old conversations; I think about the friends I have had; I review my life; Why do I say I hate myself? I'm scared about a lot of things I realize. Being alone is my biggest fear and yet I want a day alone. I don't know what my problem is. I feel alone a lot these days. I'm ( Read more... )

I hate her. She drives me up the wall. It's like she knows that I did or do have feelings for her. I know I still feel something but I meant the good ones. I'm not sure if there is a decent feeling left. Anger rising...and... I'm out.

After talking of disappearing for so long, I finally am going to be able to do it. I leave sometime in either Feb or Mar. I'm not coming back and I'm not saying good bye. If you have an email address of mine you might be able to get ahold of me. If you have my phone number it's less likely to. I just hope this thing that i've wanted for so ( Read more... )