I feel terrible.
I'm a terrible, sorry excuse for a human being.
I'm shameful, and I don't deserve anything I have.
I'm a liar, and I continue to lie even though I know it helps nothing.
I want to start over.
I want everything that happened before to just go away.

Just thinking about it makes me sick.

I hate what I've become.

( OHMYGOD. Last night was AMAZING. )

Now that we understand each other, and how we both feel, we are so much better off.
I think I'm finally letting this pass, and it feels good.

I like just being his friend :}

I'm tired of finding nothing but masks, and being hurt when I realize that they aren't who I thought they were.

I want to find someone real.

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