I love firsts. I love firsts especially when I'm suprised that they happen ( Read more... )

Pain is an interesting thing. I've been in pain since 94 and, most days, I can ignore it. I know my back will hurt daily, sometimes more than others and if I do something stupid (like ride a roller coaster) I'm gonna hurt more. But, I've learned to deal with it. It's just me. Even my headaches, which I always have (I just rate them on how bad they ( Read more... )

so, today, i go to k's house, set on spending the day... when i arrive, he says, "i've been thinking all night. i have one demand, and i know that'll probably be too many, but i'm hoping you'll still say yes. get rid of t and your fuck buddy this week. i want 6 months to rekindle and see if we're gonna be lifemates. i don't want you leaving me ( Read more... )

so, i started looking over past entries i made on here. went back two years. how long have i been miserable???? was there a time when i WASN'T miserable? not that there haven't been times when i had happy things or when i wasn't myself, but i've been unhappy and bitchy for as far back as i read. i stopped reading, finally, because i was depressing ( Read more... )

it just keeps getting better. HE keeps getting better. he's genuine. honest. real. funny. sweet. thoughtful. happy. understanding. caring. sick and twisted. and makes me feel so alive and wanted. he's awesome to be around and we have an amazing time together. we're sexually compatible and i light up when i see him or hear from him or see his color ( Read more... )

oooooh, how i like this process. it's fun. the getting to know someone. the first touches. first kisses. first... yea ( Read more... )

so, i found a house to rent. it's the size of my current kitchen. where am i going to put everything? storage. but, i have a place and the owner told me i can do what i want with it, including, put up a fence for the dogs. yey! i'll make it my own, i just don't know how yet.

court was today. dui downgraded to a reckless driving, class b misdemenor ( Read more... )

so, lent starts tomorrow. this is the first year i'll be doing it because it means something and not because i'm in a bet with someone else that i can do it. every year, i've taken it seriously, cause, i hate losing bets... but this year feels different. like  i'm picking something that isn't just important to me, but to god. in the past, i've ( Read more... )

so, i'm trying to find those things that i can do for myself that keep me sane. keep me feeling grounded. things that are MINE. tanning. sitting with my feet in the lake and just listening to the sounds around me. and eating ice cream. (i don't know WHY i'm fat)

that being said, i'd like to encouarge you to try some ben and jerry's flavors.
red ( Read more... )

lots of proud here. not that i ever thought she wouldn't graduate, but just because she did and the world is now hers. here are just a few pics. i won't overload ya.


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