I need time. to understand where the fuck am i. i'm always confused about everything and everyone. its so hard to understand. and this seem to destroy everything that i got. I'm gonna stay alone, like always and find my ways to get rid of this mess that i built so long in me. theres deep secrets that i don't even barely remember. i'm haunted by my ( Read more... )

Somethings wrong with me. i hate to admit that. i have issues i need to deal with. that i created on thyself. these problems upon myself affects the relationship. when is it going to go away? will i ever get out of this mess? its so hard to trust. and the truth fucken hurts me. and just somethings i can't accept even the truth. i'm starting to hate ( Read more... )

I had a talk with my famous Pinky. We talked about my bothers about my relationship i have now. And the most that bothers is 'preference'. analyzed that. preference means, something you prefer most. but what if your not that preference ( Read more... )

I'm going pretty crazy right now with too much emotion. i don't know what to think at all. What i think of this relationship is going down the hill, and fast. this is how i feel, and i can't help it ( Read more... )

Damn damn! i'm too fucken sensitive. for reals! I just don't know. theres times when I feel like pushing everything away and keep it there, which i can 'cause some of those things hurt sometimes. errRRR! I'm selfish and 'i am the only one who hurts himself' for reals ( Read more... )

Friday Night was actually great! I was feeling super sick at work, and seriously thinking not driving to my Joshy's, but then i felt better, i almost hit a car!! super duper close! i was freaked for awhile. I got there, feeling a still a little ill, but i exxaggerated *wink* 'cause i wanted Joshy for ALL myself. I did. yay. It was great. lovy dovy ( Read more... )

Livejournal sucks ( Read more... )

Third Eye Blind Lyrics ( Read more... )

You can have it!!! *throws it at youS* Surprisinly i'm starting to dislike the internet. its pretty stupid. the only good thing here is the freakin email. thats all you really need, and the necessary stuff, like info for school. AIM is bullshit. uh huh, and so is this stupid livejournal. i'm ending it sometime around 3 weeks or so. theres better ( Read more... )