she told me i don't have to speed date because i don't have trouble meeting new people. she said i was constantly wanted; constantly needed and always out there. that speed dating was for those who were everything i wasn't.

she's right.
i don't have a problem putting myself out there. maybe it's something i do best. maybe it's something people ( Read more... )

i've asked before if there was ever anything between us, and you made it seem like there kind of was -- but then wasn't. whether this is actually true or not, i have no idea. but i've heard things. i've heard that at one point you were into me. and i was intrigued yet again.

so what happened? what made you stop?

i never exactly took it into ( Read more... )

i asked your honest opinion, because i know you would  be honest with me -- and that i know you wanted an excuse to be able to check me out. you sort of hesitated with an answer; it wasn't necessarily a bad thing, and the look on your face was definitely priceless. it gave you something to think about when you're with her tomorrrow (tonight?) and ( Read more... )

had this dream last night where i was mackin' with bobby around a bunch of people who kept on trying to get us to do it even though we didn't really wanna. seriously weird, 'cause we did anyway.

i didn't make it past first round of RLS.
i'm over it, i guess. though there really was nothing to get over.

you want to get back together.

it bothers me knowing how much you still care about me. considering you're not supposed to even be around. and when we talked, i didn't know what to say. i don't want to bring it up either. do i really want to get back together with you? i guess, that depends. a small part of me wouldn't mind. hell, if this would have ( Read more... )

what did you even mean tonight?
i hope you're thinking of me when you're kissing her.
because that's all you ever could have meant by what you said.

i'm not her.
but i was.. once.  twice.

toronto was okay. lots of drama. i didn't drink; i couldn't - the doctors said no.

pros:
getting to hang with friends
dance parties in tyler's car
corey's cooking
meeting a cute boy 
spoonfest
tyler stealing a plate from tim horton's

cons:
drunken drama
corey telling me he does coke every time he gets laid
ice cold temperatures
snoring
finding out that cute ( Read more... )

i'm quite sick, and it's mostly, it not all bobby's fault. i can't drink for a week. i guess it'll be good for my body then -- i'll only be pumping it with numerous antibiotics the doctors gave me.

i'm still going to toronto tomorrow though.
to go bar-ing with corey, heather, caniel, shteve, alysha, brandy and crew. oh, and possible ty + bobby.

it's ( Read more... )

i dont have the spins anymore really. in bobby's room, his south park poster was going out of control. he threw up about a zilliion times and then i left.

i'm eating barbecue chips and i think they're making me sober.

tonight was actually really fun. i saw a lot of people i knew and that was awesome. bobby ran into everyone from brant house so that ( Read more... )