for a complete overhaul. starting tomorrow. tonight is for drinking.

I'm not sure what inspired me to post anything but I figured for the sake of the one or two people out there who would read it, I may as well. I am in a questionable state at the moment. I'm not really depressed. I have my moments but we all do, really. I just find myself growing more and more detached. I'm unsure as to whether that's a good ( Read more... )

I don't really care for lj anymore. Most of my friends don't even post anymore. I figured I'd do one little update and see what happens. Sooo...I am no longer at the Penguin. That place doesn't like honest, no-nonsense type people so we broke up. Me and the bird still talk through friends from time to time but there's really no interaction ( Read more... )

I'm tired of all the bullshit that has made its way into the last 6 weeks. I'm just tired. and cranky. and lonely even though I have no reason to be so. I don't like it. not one bit. so much for being positive.

hung out a bit last night. watched sideways. the movie just made me want to drink a bottle of wine and want to write a book even more. if I write 75% of it, will someone else finish it for me? I'm not good with conclusions. this semester could be rough. I don't know if I can afford to only work three shifts and I'm starting to really worry ( Read more... )

I wish I had the patience to write a book. I am thankful to have a math brain, not that I ever struggled in my english/lit classes, but I just don't have the focus to write anything substantial. Not many people are exceptionally equipped in both sides of the brain (and most of those wind up bat-shit insane or depressed or both). Not saying that ( Read more... )

life likes to fuck with me. it always deals me the hands that are just bad enough to drive me crazy but not quite bad enough for me to really get screwed. I just want to pull my hair out but I feel guilty for complaining because it could be worse. I'm still happy for the most part but I haven't exactly had an easy time over the last few months ( Read more... )

If I were to have a little low-stakes poker game every week or two, would any of you be interested in coming?

I can hardly find the words to express my state these days. I'm doing well, I suppose. I still appreciate my job and the money that comes with it. I'm a bit sick of working all the friggin time but at the same time this is the most financially stable I've ever been. By stable I don't mean that I'm exactly sitting with heavy pockets. It seems ( Read more... )

I got my first official "A" in a while. I start the next class tomorrow. Round 2...and go ( Read more... )