I gave everything I could give and I was willing to put more in ( Read more... )

i just have try and numb myself against it ( Read more... )

maybe i'll be able to create myself in this time ( Read more... )

maybe spring will liven my eyes ( Read more... )

it's not a matter of if
it's a matter of when.
i've given up trying.
i can't even describe this feeling,
it's nothing drastic
or painful,
it's nothing dramatic
or grand.
i cannot feel the guilt
that i should feel.
this has left me without pain.
what will awaken me?

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING. 

its a fucking car wreck.
my life is a fucking car wreck
this week has been dismantled metal and broken glass
I hate how i feel.
I hate how I make you feel.
I hate what i'm doing
and I need to change it.
Everything just adds up so fast and then you're taken a back by the sum of it all.
shit is lame.

through my rear view mirror drops of water swirl in patterns off the back window ( Read more... )

"You can't seem to decide if you are joyous or miserable today, and your conflicted moods are probably reflected in the mirror. People can easily read you right now, and the "come closer ... no, stay away!" message you are giving out is confusing, though perhaps that is unavoidable ( Read more... )

i'm trying to make it look like i'm okay so that this doesn't hurt so much
idk if the cover is doing much for my head
and my heart
I am lonely and sad.