i think ive lost it a tad
but maybe im just admiring the beauty of everything
I sit in my shower and just bask in the sun that comes through that tiny little window
then force myself to stand up, shampoo and whatnot, and get out and dry myself off
ive never felt so confined and free at the same time
i wish i could feel free all the time...

Sometimes you just feel lost
completely utterly and mind-numbingly lost
not in a horribly angry 'i hate my life' kind of lost
just a lazy dreary what am I doing kinda of lost
incessant meandering and ending up in dead ends
where nothing from the beginning made any sense
and then at your dead end the beginning became more sensible than anything
you find ( Read more... )

I'm happiest with me as I've ever been ( Read more... )

i feel like i'm going to cry
i should probably go do something so that doesnt happen...

I'm afraid of what I'm letting myself become.
I'm so very very tired of academia land already.
I hate staying up late and getting up early.
I didn't go to class again today because I didn't go last thursday and thought our paper was due today but she changed it until the 30th.
Which I'm in the process of writing, I gotta finish that tomorrow.
I want to ( Read more... )

ive been painting
its really nice to just shut my brain down for a little while.
it's refreshing

off to work I go though
then time to go out :)

haha. I'm getting praised for it ( Read more... )

he is honestly the most amazing thing i have in my life
after tonight I dont think i'll doubt him ever again
what a relief what a feeling i have right now
i feel like i'm high
but i'm not lol
but i am!
wonderful incredible amazing
i love this life

i realized i have a lot of time to do with my life what i wish to do with my life and i should stop worrying.
that's all :)
gnight!

I am my own damn god.