Sorry for the delayed update ( Read more... )

Merry Christmas. How I hate this 'jolly' season. I dislike my family (apart from mother, cousin Lana and occasionly father) yet I am forced to spend time and money on them. It's not that they're a horrible bunch, they're quite lovely really, I'm just not one of them and I don't belong with them. Just the way things are ( Read more... )

Started at Jono's place for Alex's bday pre-drinks. I only knew Alex. Met many others - all 18 or 19. Didn't think I drank that much at Jono's, but conversation with boy I just met (Peter) on way to train station may prove otherwise. Nearly stacked it running in heels to catch the train ( Read more... )

I feel old. I am no longer a teenager. 20. For me, this is strange. I know, people say it's no big deal (mainly people over 20 are saying that), but for me it's strange. It's like, so many things happened in my life when I was a teenager, and now that I'm 20, my life is starting all over again ( Read more... )

I can't believe he's gone. It's so different from when my aunty died and also different to when my grandfather died ( Read more... )

Dejan died yesterday morning. He was 29 ( Read more... )

Sophie's gone. Haven't seen her since Saturday. I put food out for her on Sunday morning. It hasn't been touched. She never leaves our property. My mother thinks she's gone somewhere to die. I don't want to believe it, but it's the most likely explanation ( Read more... )

Went to fumo blu, had 3 cocktails, one of which was loveinbly paif for byu alex. cant be bothered correctung my spelling, soo mcuh alcolohol ( Read more... )

Firstly - to all those who messaged me for my birthday today - thank you so so so much! Seriously, everytime I looked at my phone today, I had a new message!!! So thank you for making me feel extremely loved ( Read more... )

Okay, so you're all aware it's my birthday soon. Or you should be ( Read more... )