Over 13 months ago, I left this blog behind. I left my city and state and country behind.

I had already left people behind, it happens all the time.
I left stuff, mostly clothes, paintings and books.
And for most of that time, I thought life might continue to move for me, but not for anybody else.
I would exist in my South Korea bubble, and when I ( Read more... )

Okay, so a few bits of good news...

the book is back up and running.  In the works let us say.  I'm glad that it was able to sit, starving, like a wretched and diseased animal, for so long.  And it didn't die when I neglected to feed it.  It's padding along beside me again, taking me along with it on paths I've never tread.  I like that.

I'm a little ( Read more... )

Once upon a time people had souls
Before they traded them for dollar bills and wireless phones
They walk around eyes open and still bump into things
Work their souls out, or drink them out
You can see it too
Look for those lines around the eyes, pinching them up
Or under and around the mouth
Those craggy dead lines from too much concentration
and the soul ( Read more... )

so the website is on  the net.  it is not complete yet, some things inexplicably didn't make it.  But you should go and check it out, marvel at my insane abilities with flash and html.  OOooooohhhh.

www.TheMeske.com

ps- pages can take a long time to load.  be patient.

This is not about giving up, or giving in.  This is not about memory, of all the things I miss or how I've mismanaged today.  It is not about failed relationships or the jealousy restricting speech away from my throat.  It's not about four years gone, or three years of quiet desperation and three months of frenzied follow through.  It's not about ( Read more... )

On a scale of one to hopeless, my life now rates at a seven.

welcome ladies and gentlemen,

I haven't posted in some time.  Like I said at the beginning of this journal, I never do well at these things.  It is for the same reason I don't have a library card, or that I don't like to rent movies.  I don't keep up with this kind of crap.

Anyhow, here's what's up.  I've just seen V for Vendetta for the second time ( Read more... )

hey kids,

I haven't posted in a long time, so here's a little update on how my life's going!

It SUCKS!  YES!

Aside from bowling night, and my current lady (who, for some bizarre reason absolutely worships me), life is fucking terrible.  Here's the smiley emoticon =)

I got my last rejection letter from the agents I sent to, so that's good.

And I've been ( Read more... )

Fuck women and their needs
Fuck work and its hypocrisy
Fuck this city and its stagnation
Fuck this room and all my stuff

Fuck these tears rolling down my face
And definitely fuck this thing closing up my throat
Fuck my coworkers and their affairs
They're fucking each other anyway
Fuck big business (fuck big oil too)
But most of all fuck the last two ( Read more... )

This is slowly breaking me.  Dollar bills and a sad cyclone of numbers.


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