So..today I was home alone...all day and had nothing better to do but think. Think about things of the past but also about things of the future. Unfortunately the past had more of a hold on me and ended up being what I thought about most. I know I don't want what I used to have, I would be so unhappy with it now. But memories still seem to creep ( Read more... )

This weekend went surprisingly good. The show Friday night was amazing, just as I had been told. Nice to know for once I hadn't been lied to :) Saterday I got up so early because some idiot called and woke Tiff and I up. So Matt, Tiff, and I went to the sucky Ahoskie parade then to Los Amigos. As soon as we left Los Amigos Matt threw up in the ( Read more... )

Nothing ever seems to work out the way I plan. Somehow, no matter how much effort I put into things, they always get screwed up. I've been told I think to much and that I have the tendency to over-analyze everything, maybe thats where I go wrong. I hate that ( Read more... )

So latley I've been in these really light-hearted, la di da moods. And I've been extremely happy but not as happy as I've been leading on. I just feel as if a part of me is missing. I know I want something more out of life, I'm not sure what, but I will continue to search ( Read more... )

Ahh the joys of life. Sitting at home, my heaters broke, I'm freezing cold and bored. Life is good. Tiffany and Matt might come over after church so that might be fun. Tiffany and I were talking last night and we're both in the mood for a really good show so we will see what happens there... But, life is looking up. I have few words left to ( Read more... )

Well, tonight I went to the show at Mug Shotz and it actually wasn't as bad as I was thought it would be. I was not expecting to have as good of a time as I did and I'm honestly glad I went tonight. I really expected it to hurt worse than it did when I saw him, but by seeing him, it made me realize something very important. I love him, yes, but ( Read more... )

This week has been quite different from my past. I've spent alot more time with friends(and it's very nice to know you have those :)) and alot more time thinking. Not thinking about just one particular thing but of a large variety of things. Such as friends, God, and relationships or lack there of. Over the past week, I've gone through so many ( Read more... )

Things can turn upside down so fast. Unexpected stabs in your back from people that you love. I hate that people have to put up fronts, why can't they just be real? Be who you are no matter what others think. Whats the point in trying to be someone your not? Just tell the truth, be honest, it can't hurt any worse than all the lies. It's hard ( Read more... )