After feeling hopeless for so long... when the light at the end of the tunnel was so dim that I had the earge to stop walking towards it and just sit quietly in the dark... God answered my desparate prayers ( Read more... )

I hate when I let my imagination go. Every girl daydreams about her "guy" but I've always felt that I just took it to another level. It's my overactive imagination. A gift and a curse. It can paint pictures for hours but those pictures can torture me for hours too ( Read more... )

Just waiting till it gets easier. Till the pain subsides. The wound needs to close. I want a scab. I want it gone. A cross I must bare but I don't want to. No one wants to carry their cross. Why must it be so hard? Where do I find relief? Being away is hard but being close hurts too much. There is no ease. No rest. Sleepless nights. Mornings with ( Read more... )

Reality is harsh at times. I want to be a teenager again where it was okay to live in my mind. Pretending. Happy. Easy. Growing up means facing the facts. Acceptance ( Read more... )

Just read the last couple of entries and I kinda laughed. I can't believe how much I've grown. How far I've come in so many areas of my life. The way I view my faith is different, my family, my friends, my love interests... my ministries ( Read more... )

Is it possible to be addicted to a person?
I think I am. I can't stay away. Being apart is painful and I count the days till I see him again.
What's wrong with me? Why can't I be happy with me?

My nerves are getting the best of me. I can't seem to "sit still" in my mind. A thousand thoughts are going through and I have no way of rationally categorizing them, dwelling on one thought or sometimes... understanding what my mind is trying to tell me. I'm thoroughly frustrated with this state that I'm in ( Read more... )

Oh Livejournal, how I long for your countless entries from friends and groups. Your endless array of icons to choose from. How I miss typing out my life events. My joys and frustrations, life's questions and struggles ( Read more... )

And still falling. Just thought you'd like to know. XD ( Read more... )

So for about a month or so after watching the "The Rose" starring Ella Chen, I was kinda avoiding any Asian media just because I didn't feel like watching any shows. I attempted to start Ella's next show but for some reason, it couldn't get my attention for long. But like two weeks ago, I though... hm... I should really check out the Japanese ( Read more... )