Say it's over, say I'm dreaming
Say I'm better than you left me
Say you're sorry, I can take it

Say you'll wait, say you won't
Say you love me, say you don't
I can make my own mistakes
Let it bend before it breaks.
Before it Breaks - Brandi CarlileLast night was the first night in 11 days that Michelle and I did not spend the night together. I ( Read more... )

'Cause waking up without you is like drinking from an empty cup....
The Animals Were Gone - Damien Rice

This is the first day in over a week that we have not spent the night together.  Waking up without her just doesn't feel right, like something important is missing.

Last night my depression kicked in for the first time in a couple months.  I don' ( Read more... )

She doesn't own a dress
Her hair is always a mess,
You catch her stealin' she won't confess
She's Beautiful.

Smokes a pack a day, but wait,
That's me, but anyway
She doesn't care a thing
About that hair,
She thinks I'm beautiful
Meet Virginia
Meet Virginia - Train

We talked a lot last night about things...it was nice.  She addressed a lot of my ( Read more... )

Giggles and warm feelings
Holding you in my arms
Laughing and silly teasing
Winning me over with your charm
Kiss my lips and hold me tight
Leaving my insecurities behind
Wanna hold you til the morning light
Warm & Fuzzy - Casey R.

Life is so wonderful right now.  I feel closer to my wonderful son than I ever have, I'm on track with school, I have a stable ( Read more... )

Remember all the things we wanted?
Now all the memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye....
Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson

I don't want to go through the explanation of everthing that has happened in the past two months.  It's too much.  Suffice to say, Amanda and I are done for good.  No more sleeping together, no more sex, no more ( Read more... )

FUCKING TELL ME THIS WAS NOT WRITTEN FOR ME N HER!!!!

I STILL MISS YOU - KEITH ANDERSON

I've changed the presets in my truck
so those old songs don't sneak up
they still find me and remind me
yeah you come back that easy
try restaurants I've never been to
order new things off the menu
that I never tried cause you didn't like
two drinks in you were by ( Read more... )

The following was written about me by a girl I had a brief fling (the Ashlee I mentioned previously, who actually turned out to be a psycho clingy pushy girl) with after I broke up with Amanda:

Sitting here my mind spinning in my head, she doesn’t know how to follow through on what she said. So now I must let go of the past of mind heart and soul to ( Read more... )

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why
All Good Things (Come to An End) - Nelly Furtado

So Manda and I have really been struggling to keep things platonic.  I started talking to ( Read more... )

I'm lost on a road, don't know which way to go. I'm losing my mind losing control of the wheel and I'm swerving on and off the road.
Lost - Gorilla Zoe

Wow have not posted in a while.....well somewhere between the last time things fell apart and now, Manda's roommate had a really good talk with us kind of to mediate and we had an absolutely amazing ( Read more... )

I am so sick.  I have an appointment on tuesday.  hoping to get klonopin.  took some yesterday and was reminded why it is my favorite pill.  It makes me feel at ease.   I'm still upset but I can deal with ilfe for a little better.  it's all i want.  said some horrible things to amanda today...i'm so sad i don't know what is going to happen. all i ( Read more... )