I keep thinking that I am going to wake up from all of this. That the past few days have been nothing but a dream and that when I wake up everything will be the way it was. Chris won't be dead. He will come out from hiding. I know that this isn't going to happen. I saw the casket go from the church to the hearse and to the cemetery. I said my final ( Read more... )

I met Chris Peleshok from my days working at Northville Race track. We all used to call him more by his nickname 'Curly'. I just got the news that my buddy has passed away at 49. I really don't have all the details right now and aren't the point for me writing this. Instead I want to talk about something else that is really bothering me ( Read more... )

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I haven't updated this thing in quite a while. I guess because I have not felt like sitting down and writing about my life. So this is really overdue. I used to write things down so that I could remember and understand difficult times. I stopped writing because I didn't want internet robots to read my posts and have them pop-up on search engines. I ( Read more... )

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I finally have a second to reconnect with my feelings. Sitting here right now too tired to sleep, I feel like examining myself through a journal entry ( Read more... )

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I really should update this more on a regular basis instead of when I can't sleep/ having nothing better to do. I used to love to write in this thing. I'll try harder from now on, in the meantime PICTURES!!


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