To day should be a good enough day. I have posted requests to some new communities and I find that this site has helped me expose myself without having to deal with people bothering me. I can be myself with people that share the same thoughts and everyone is so nice that I find myself becoming an absolute Livejournal addict. Today Samantha, Lisa ( Read more... )

Well... The most amazing thing has happened... *drum roll* I'M ENGAGED!!! Jason proposed this weekend and of course I said a big grinning yes. Though I was crying I assure you readers that it was the most happy cry I have ever had. Words cannot explain the feelings I have when I look at my *FIANCE* (WHOOT) or when I look at my ring when he's not ( Read more... )

Well thought today is going to be one of the best of my life I must admit that it seems to be such a long and never ending afternoon. The appartment my boyfriend and I are most likely going to have by 3:00 today makes me happy and cautious at the same time. I hope I have the ability to maintain a good work ethic what with part time jobs and my last ( Read more... )

For some reason today I woke up on my 17th birthday and it's as if I don't exist. Every other day would have been fine but it would seem that they all forgot I was a human being on earth. I guess its fine but now I feel really hollow and empty.. Well got to go...

Heh I don't have much to say except perhaps the fact that I have finally cried. It was only for about two minutes but it felt so nice to feel again. My emotions are coming back slowly and though I am still quite numb I am happy that its finally going away and I am finally feeling a little more than this disjoint feeling of none existence. Anywho. I ( Read more... )

Today the light hurts. I know that sounds stupid but everything about my body is numb or in agony. I pulled some of my hair out last night and though you can't tell my head feels like its on fire. I cut a long 30cm cut virtically down my chest and started hackign away and still nothing. The only thing I felt last night was when I finally pulled out ( Read more... )

Though everything is going well and the dance shall be a great treat. The fact that I am also going to get drunk and spend time with my boyfriend this weekend it a great outlook on the end of the week. Unfortunatly its a quiet day even here at school and I am being left with my thoughts which is a dangerous thing. Especially with my household being ( Read more... )

I don't have much to say but perhaps I have a little song lyrics to give you that will help you understand my mood as of right now. I am happy but at the same time feel somewhat angry and raw as if I just let out some insanely deep secret that hurt me even though I haven't... Well here are some random thoughts ( Read more... )

I thought of this cruel little rythme it sounds sort of like a mother goose thing and I like it even though its weird ( Read more... )

Well its raining and though its dark I find myself enjoying the dark and sombre weather since it reflects my mood and I love being in this devious mood. Moreover I have returned the ready-or-not-tot to the teacher and no longer have to listen to the mettalic cries of a rubber made baby who's sole purpose is to encourage abstinence and to 'show' you ( Read more... )