I have not been on here in so long because for a long time it has felt like no one gives a shit and although no one has realized it I have been seriously depressed because it seems like anyone that I let down my wall for(except for marcus) ends up hurting me. Finally, about the time of my birthday I realized that I really do have two true friends ( Read more... )

Wow, I havent updated this in so freaking long. I am kinda thinking of just stopping lj all together because looking back I can see that the posts just cause a lot of drama and shit between poeple. I mean, if you wanna wite in a journal get a journal. I mean why write mean things about people in here when you KNOW they are gonne read it? It is ( Read more... )

I just wrote a whole like page about my day and it is gone cuz 0of my computer so no one is going to know about my shitty ass day. It was terrible. Maybe someday I'll type it all again in here. Goodnight.

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Well, I had a talk with marcus today and it went better than I thought it would. I know that there is more to it but at least he told me some. I do not know mow much longer I can be in a relationship if he is going to do this shit. I mean, you dont tell someone that they should be in a porno. That kinda tends to piss your gf off...ya know? and I do ( Read more... )

Well, my day started off pretty well. Chum and I got to practice kinda early and for the most part practice went really well. I really like having it in the morning because it is not nearly as hot and people seem to be able to focus a little better. We learned some more of our routine and people seem to be picking it up pretty well. There are a few ( Read more... )

These last few days have been seriously...aweosme. There has not really been any drama or fighting that Ihave been involved in and it seems like the world is just on my side. Marcus and i are getting along a lot better than we had been and Chum and I are kinda getting closer ( Read more... )

I am so confused right now... I do not know what to do...I dont know if it is going on the right direction. I do not feel like I can trust anyone around me with my feelings or what is going on around me. People I thought gave a shit really do not. I hate being used and taken advantage of ( Read more... )

Well, today colorguard offically starts...basics camp for the next three days! I hope that everyone has fun and that all the new people stick around for a great year!(and the returning members too!!!!) I am really exited for the season to start because I always have a lot of fun and hopefully there wont be as much drama as last year and the team ( Read more... )

I hate it when people cannot even tell you the truth. I am sooo sick of it. I mean if you dont wanna do something why not just say so? doesnt that make a hell of a lot more sence? Why bother waisting your time saying you are going to go do something if you really have no intention of doing it? That just does not make sence to me. I hate when people ( Read more... )