I am in a situation where I don't know what is best right now. I've been talking to my counselor alot lately, and she keeps telling me I need to decide and see where my relationship is headed. I keep telling her that John is not forgiving and he's not forgetting the past events. And she keeps asking me realistically should I expect him to and haven ( Read more... )

Oh I've had it with this week, I'm so pissed off! I just found out that Midwestern State will only accept 30 credit hours of the 120 credit hours that I have done at Ohio State. What the fuck is up with that?? I thought I was totally going to get in so I went through their bullshit orientation/overnight program to find out that not only was I not ( Read more... )

Like oh my god it's another OC!! Unfortunately I watched the rerun episodes of Laguna Beach on MTV this morning due to the fact that I was too lazy to get out of bed for my remote control and change the channel. I've never seen so many bratty teenage snobs getting everthing their way. Well, I change my mind on that opinion, I worked at Best Buy and ( Read more... )

And I thought my name was a little too weird, compared to half of these baby names I'm glad my name isn't as bad as theirs. So off the record would you ever name your kid(s) after a household utensil, a profession, or a peice of cloth ( Read more... )

So I am extremely tired and still sick. Imagine your body being stuffed into the washing machine, stuck on spin cycle for 24 hours, have a steam roller roll over your mangled body, and then maybe you will understand the depth of how incapable of movement I feel. To top that off I am still getting chills, my nose won't stop running, and my throat is ( Read more... )

So I went and hung out with my best friend Danielle this weekend at Stillwater, good times noodle soup!! She took me out to the stables and we saw her Clydesdale horse (it's huge). I saw four other horses that were in stalls opposite of her horses', and I also ran into Mr. 13 a tabby barn cat. He loves to follow people, really gently cat, I thought ( Read more... )

I hate anxiety fits. I feel like I'm having one of those moments where I have to wait everything out and see what happens. It may be good or it may be bad and I don't have any control over it because I'm not the one in control. I guess I will have to try and stay on the tracks and try not to derail.

I miss him

It is officially permanent, our cell phones have been cancelled. I will no longer know how he is or what he is doing unless he decides to email me and let me know. I guess it is over....even though the divorce papers aren't signed yet. Sad really I spent a quarter of my life with him and this is how it ends, an argument over the phone about ( Read more... )

So for the past three nights, since I haven't really been able to go to sleep because I keep thinking about my current situation over and over again for ideas on how to improve everything and make everybody be happy, I've been mean to the one person I love the most...John. Last night I said some really horrible things that I know hurt him, but I ( Read more... )