sometimes i feel as though, even when i am with all my friends that i love so much, even when i am in class with 42 other people who share the same passion as me, even when i am out partying it up, dressed as a nerd, i am completely and utterly alone

Okay, seriously, I get crappy cards in poker. So when I actually get a really good hand, I go all in. And the ONE TIME, Jeff ALWAYS gets a better hand than me. It's so frustrating. I suck at poker :) I guess I'm just not good at bluffing. Oh well. How I yearn for the days of Scrabble ( Read more... )

Yesterday was very low-key.. ah I love three day weekends :) Then, last night, I got roped into playing poker for the first time. Ha, that was amusing. I had a REALLY good hand too, so I went all in, and then Jeff had to whip out pocket aces.. I hate him. I could have won, I really could have. Honestly. So anyway, then the good players came up to ( Read more... )

Yaaaay we finally have side-door access! Well... at least, I have side-door access. That majority of the floor, however, does not. Ha ha ha ha too bad for them. Oh well. So that made my day. Waking up at 8 this morning, and having to drag myself to history, however, did not make my day. One more day until the three day weekend! I am so excited. ( Read more... )

So I got a slip in my mailbox to tell me I got a package. So I'm like, sweet, someone loves me. I walk up to the desk, and the woman hands me this huge box that I had to lug across the quad to my dorm. Awesome. I attempt to open it, slitting my palm in the process, by the way. What is WRONG with me?! I swear, I cut myself or stab myself or ( Read more... )

My hacking has finally subsided, as has my incessant wheezing... Thank the Lord. I am still going through Kleenex like none other though. Why do I still have this awful head cold? It's not even a cold, just a stuffed nose. And my ears won't pop! It's so bizarre ( Read more... )

I feel really bogged down in Study Abroad paperwork, as well as all the courses I have to take for University CORE Requirements, Psych and History Major requirements, etc. I am getting discouraged; I feel like I won't ever graduate! Oh well. I am excited to study abroad, even though I will miss everyone Sooooo much ( Read more... )

Today I went back to see Dr. Helms and she gave me more oxygen treatment and even more meds. And then she said that I had to go get an x-ray. Yaaaay. So Jeff drove me over there. Fortunately, I don't have pneumonia, but still, my lungs are clogged and my tubes are still tight as heck. So I have to go in again tomorrow and check in with her. So now ( Read more... )

Ha ha haaaa... Ah I do so love my luck. So, you know how I've been coughing lately... Well. Last night, I literally could NOT BREATHE when I was trying to sleep. Like, at all. I'd try to breathe, and I would just end up hacking, trying to clear up my lungs... So I call Cowell, the health center, and make an appointment. Later, I go into Cowell and ( Read more... )

Sooo, I am now back at Santa Clara. It's really good to be back, and to see everyone again. It's raining though, and that sucks, and I am all sickly again, so that sucks. Honestly, I don't know what's wrong with me. I have so much mucus in my lungs (I know I know, it's gross...) But what's even grosser is when I wheeze. It's quite pathetic, ( Read more... )