( some pictures from the Panic! At The Disco/The Dresden Dolls/The Hush Sound show that i went to last week )

so my buddy Lauren and i decided to do a little belated April Fool's joke the other night. we decided that it would be entertaining to dress up in our most "scene" looking outfits that we could scrounge up (after invading her closet and bring clothes over and invading mine at my apartment as well, where the photo shoot took place). we then ( Read more... )

im slowly starting to feel a bit better. but its an uphill battle. at least i can recognize that, right?

so yesterday, Valentine's Day, turned out to not be as terrible as i thought it would be. of course its no surprise, to anyone who kinda-sorta knows me, that i am pretty much the loneliest kid on earth. so its pretty obvious that i dont enjoy holidays that just shove everyone elses happiness and coupledom in my face. it just kind of amplifies the ( Read more... )

its getting hard to keep up with these lies and not let on that things are not as they appear to be more often than not. its terribly hard on me to follow through and make sure i dont cause a slip up and let someone know what people shouldnt know. the lies used to be so easy, but now theyre just tiring ( Read more... )

this will inevitably come off as sounding trite and melodramatic, but i never thought i'd return to this terrible place inside of me. i thought i had abandoned it a long time ago, but its return is just a testament to my ability to overcome adversity, or really the lack of said ability. i am starting to feeling like i am losing more than myself ( Read more... )

fuck going to my therapist. im not gonna go see him anymore. hes not helping. and im stuck still feeling terrible, but with less money due to the co-pays for each session. therapy is so fucking stupid. i dont think that hearts and flowers crap will ever help me.

edit:

this picture made me want to throw up. its in 'celebration' of the chinese new ( Read more... )

note to self: quit being such a pussy. try living up to that tough bitch persona that others often see. oh and at some point in life, learn how to fist fight (not that i ever get in fights with anyone or really plan on it in the future, i just think it would be fun to push myself to do something that took some of my internal angst and put it to ( Read more... )

ummmm why one earth does the commercial for Special K involve the version of the "Hot Potato" by The Wiggles [yes, the childrens show singers]?? its so annoying b/c now its stuck in my head. aaaaand lets not question why i know A) who The Wiggles are, and B) that they do a version of that song. those things shall remain a secret...b/c that is ( Read more... )

"Your amazing sensitivity makes you a much-needed angel of mercy."

that was from my horoscope for today. i find it quite lovely actually.

today is Darcy's 1 year adoption anniversary :). yay puppy! i will celebrate it by giving her many belly rubs and treats for sure.