do you ever wonder if people have a different kind of relationship with each one of their loves.  i often wonder about this.  what got me wondering is im on facebook with some people that i went to high school with. and i read some of their posts and look at the pictures and they seem like such different people.  some of them were real jerks in ( Read more... )

I cant sleep again.  i feel tired til i  try to go to sleep.  then im not and i want to be anywhere but here.  and i dont really know why.  i like where i live. its comfortable.  i get along well with my roomate.  maybe it just the season this is the time of year i hate.  and in the past have been unhappy and have made huge changes to my life this ( Read more... )

today is a better day.  ive realised that he is making himself and me miserable.  not anymore.  i will not be miserable with him. if he wants to act like a child he can.   when he would like to be an adult again he can call me.  i put the effort up and got shut down.  and it didnt feel very good.  he knows that. ive made that clear to anyone who ( Read more... )

i miss my best friend.  i hate him for leaving me alone.  one of my other good friends died.  but i never considered him my best friend.  yes he was a great friend and my world revolved around him. but he hadnt been in my life as long as my best friend.  the emotions werent the same.  he had been thru as much with me as my best friend.  he had been ( Read more... )

im trying to get back into my writing again.  ive had a very long period of limbo.  where i thought that i was happy and everything was great.  its funny how you can trick yourself in to believing what you want.  im joining reality again.