As the school year proceeds I seem to be feeling more and more like an outsider. I don't fit in and I'm just so fucking lonely at school. I'm unhappy but whenever my mom asks me about it I abruptly shrug it off and immediately change the subject. My laptop has made me even more of a loner--now I don't even have to watch movies or tv with my family ( Read more... )

So we got back from sex camp today (or the "sex retreat"). It wasn't half as bad I thought it would be. I assumed it would be Joel being like "Now kids, this is a condom!" but it was much better than that. I mean most of the guest speakers were actually interesting/entertaining. I mean the guy that talked about abstinence was actually cool...how ( Read more... )

As Alix pointed out to me I haven't updated in months. I've sat down and tried to write but I just haven't been in the mood. I guess it is one of those things where you just have so much going on and so many thoughts that its almost daunting to sit down and just write-cause god knows what might come out ( Read more... )

Wow. where to begin? Its been weeks since I've written anything at all. So much has happened in those few weeks too and it would be way to exhausting (and boring) for me to go into every detail of the last few weeks. So for a short recap ( Read more... )

So just when I thoughts things couldn't get any weirder (by things I mean my family) they do. It amazes me how much I think I know them, but in reality, they still manage to suprise me all the time. Basically, My grandpa died on friday, here's the catch, my uncle may or may not have killed him-we are still waiting on the autopsy report. Tonight I ( Read more... )

This past week has been challenging. It has seriously felt like the longest week of my life. Today Coleen cancelled PE which I am actually disapointed about, not because I love ultimate frisbee but because then I could talk to Lindsley who seems to be the only one who gets me right now. Things are getting so messed up, I sort of feel like she ( Read more... )

God. Life is complicated. Too complicated really. Basically I feel like crap for more reasons then I care to explain or write about. Plus who wants to listen to me complain? Nobody. So, moving on ( Read more... )

So my sophmore track career is officially over-and with a very slow bang. I think in my post race/ibuprofen-induced drowsiness I may have just told Rick that I'd do cross country next year...and go to running camp this summer...and agreed to do portland to coast. wow. I am the master of agreeing to do things I DON'T want to do. way to go me ( Read more... )

I think most people had a good time at prom. I however, did not. Not for any reason in perticular, nothing bad happened, nothing was horribe, but yet I was miserable. blegh, it seems like i'm incapable of enjoying myself these days. Even my sixteenth boirthday couldn't bring me any happiness or excitement. What the fuck is wrong with me ( Read more... )

Sorry entires have been so lame lately. I can't believe it's sunday, that means school tomorrow ( Read more... )