wow so for some odd reason i decided to log on to this. Basically everytime i get on this its bc im depressed about my weight but anyway, its so bizare to see entries from my freshman year! it seems like so long ago. I read these entries, and i can HEAR the immaturity, the naiveite, and yet, its like everything I've written is, for the most part, ( Read more... )

ahh i just wrote this all already but it got deleted. whatever.i cant believe i am writing this online ok sooo last night was the last friday of spring break. so u just knew some crazy shit was gonna go down. we had a lil party for all the in town kids (like all 6 of them) at emily's guest house. We did the night before as well but this time i was ( Read more... )

i need to stop thinking about him what the fuck. I am so depressed bc i look like a whale. i want hip bones i have no fucking hips its not fair.my sister is in seventh grade and her bones are beautiful. Moving on from kevin, i think i like a boy who is *GASP* actually my own age. this is like the first guy i have ever liked who is not older and i ( Read more... )

i ate like a cow today. went to the gym and only lifted. grrr. thursday is oc night it makes me think of him. i always secretly wish he will text me durring the show. i bet he doesnt even watch it, he just uses it for a pick up. i am such a bitch to him. this is fucking going to come around,someone admitts their feelings to me and all i say is ( Read more... )

for me, writing is like exhaling. It is as natural as breathing to me , to write down my day's events is truly the best way to end the day. so i haven't written in forever. While i was in health, i met this boy Kevin Thomas. He is a senior. He is kind of the first boy i had a HARD crush on. Its weird like i hook up a lot and i dont know, its like ( Read more... )

i hate how its boys that make me feel confident or not so much. When i was away, i felt amazing. I was gorgeous, tiny, a great person. I miss my boys, the ones who would find ways to touch me and make me just happy. NOw im back. Once again i am filled with self doubt. Once again i am ugly, im fat and a person that is not someone people get attached ( Read more... )

Creek is a place that is unlike a highschool, and it is a place that fragile teens should never be exposed to. Here, everyone has a little secret, a little part of them that is dirty, yet very widely known. It is a quirk that their classmates consider, and usually dismiss, a quirk that their parents could never know. Whether they are whoreish or ( Read more... )