When I was 15 everything was poetry. Everything had another meaning and was beautiful in it's own way. 
Yesterday we talked about rain and how he wanted to run in it. 
But it never rained like it was supposed to.
Today on my walk back from class in nothing but a T-shirt, it poured.
I got caught in him rainstorm.
To anyone else that just means I got the ( Read more... )

Oh wow ( Read more... )

It  must have been nice to have me melt into him
after putting up such a fight.
My little moans as I slowly slung my legs over his.
My wide eyes even wider in suprise.
If this was a one time thing,
I'm keeping my lips to myself for a while.

I've been reliving the other night in my mind. I kind of want to just go back to that moment and stay there forever: sitting on his lap, our foreheads touching, his fingers brushing my lips. The last moment I wanted to live in forever was the night with Michael, and I can feel the difference in the moments. I wanted to stay in the one with Michael ( Read more... )

 Last night... wow ( Read more... )

Her: There's a place for me in your heart.
Him: At the bottom?
Her: What?
Him: At the bottom?
Her: Who cares where, as long as it's there.
Him: That's optimistic.

How do you walk out on five years? And why didn't we walk away sooner? 

I don't know what to do. I have fought for this, haven't I? I have given up so much for this, haven't I? I have made decisions based on this, haven't I? So can I really just let it go? Should I let it go? If I spent all this time working for this, waiting for this, if as soon as I get it and it doesn't all snap into place, is that a good enough ( Read more... )

 I go to NIU. My mind has been spinning these last few days. I didn't know anyone hurt. I was in my dorm room taking a nap when it all went down. It took me three days to even feel something about it. I don't do well with death. I hate thinking about the enormous loss other people are feeling right now. I hate thinking about how 6 people are no ( Read more... )

 I wrote everything down. Things I don't even remember anymore. I'm reading them and wanting to drop dead. Things that make me so embarrassed, or things that make me feel so loved. Things I missed at the time and am only seeing now. Things I wish never happened. That's our problem, there's too much between us. He knows me too well and he's hurt me ( Read more... )

I've got a bad idea and every muscle in my body is trying to act on it ( Read more... )