No idea the last time I posted here, but I feel it relevant now in a major crossroads and just otherwise cluster fuck that could potentially crush me. It's 343 am I'm weening off of anti anxiety and depression medication. While dealing with the fact that my wife of nearly 8 years doesn't love me anymore. I can't sleep when I want to. My future is ( Read more... )

I need to write again, this used to be a daily ritual, and as angst-filled and attention seeking as it was...thats who i was. I wanted pity, i wanted admiration. Now i just want to get out of my head, and vent and not be judged. tomorrow is a new day, first day of the rest of my life. how can you not be excited about it that. tomorrow is a new day ( Read more... )

Aloof ( Read more... )

so here i am in san diego. first day, at my first duty, first time not waking up next to ashley in two weeks, and i miss her terribly. one day down. 34 to go. i talked to derek today, and we made plans to hang out 2morrow. i need to go to sleep. i need to figure out this whole san diego situation thing like NOW. i'll write more when i know what to

lets see. its almost been a year since i posted in here. i went for it....and ashley and i are madly in love, about to get married and have our first child due in late june early july. i joined the us navy,and i'm currently living in meridian mississippi training for my job as a Yeoman. i'm hoping i get station in either san diego or norfolk ( Read more... )

it all rests in the back of my mind ( Read more... )

i dont remember ever being as dissapointed as i was after the game last night. the only reassuring thing about it was that it proved that nothing is predetermined. anything can happen. i drank for almost twenty straight hours yesterday. i'm so dissapointed in myself.

we both go together if one falls down. i talk outloud like you're still around.

new years resolutions have been set. tomorrow they begin. we'll see. we'll see ( Read more... )

november sixth 2006 ( Read more... )

. live it. love it. drink it. rethink it ( Read more... )