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My battle with myself
This song couldn't be more true at anypoint in my life then now ( Read more... ) -
Bringing sexy back
I am still struggling with my depression. It's been a really rough bout lately and I'm trying not to give into it. I think that work makes it worse. As soon as I get there I get so bummed out. I just want to be free. But I believe that those day are long gone. It's not that I'm trapped but I just want to do something that's important to me.I ( Read more... ) -
routine
I'm bored. Super Bored. Work is sooooo not fun anymore... I keep daydreaming about cool things that I think I should be doing. For example, I was looking up volunteer programs in Africa where you spend 2 weeks to 3 months helping refugees, teaching kids to read or helping teach people about safer sex methods. Sooo cool. So why don't I go do it? ( Read more... ) -
GRE, LOVE AND MY PROMOTION
1. The GRE sucks and yes I'm still studying for it. Fuck ETS ( Read more... ) -
struggling
I'm struggling to be at peace with myself. Time's a wasting and I have yet to peel myself from my doubts and fears. I lay awake at night unsure of myself and with the lowest confidence ever.what the fuck happened to me!!! I'm struggling to pull my shit together. My lack of self confidence is beginning to strain my relationship with Dre a little. I' ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Applying to grad school has been the most arduous and excruciating experience in the history of applying to schools.So I sucked AZZZZZZ on the GRE last month. I've never sucked so hard at a test in my life. But that's in the past. I've wallowed in self-pity and self destruction for the remainder of 2006. 8 days into the new year and although I ( Read more... ) -
Count down
There are so many count downs for me this month ( Read more... ) -
Who can I run to?
I've been sad lately. It's this undercurrent that pulls me quickly and unexpectedly. I stopped going to therapy which initially I was proud of but now I believe is a mistake. There's so much underneath and so many layers that are hidden so deep. Those deep layers are starting to peel and the sores are fresh ( Read more... ) -
disowned
I've been disowened 2x in a year by my parents. This has got to be some kind of record... -
does anyone know I'm a fraud?
I've been having trouble focusing lately. And by lately I mean my ENTIRE life. I've decided to simplify my life by setting one goal. I want to go to graduate school. I've been mapping out this decision to further my education for about a year. I AM AFRAID! I am petrified that I won't make it and I'll be devastated!I think that is why I have yet to ( Read more... )