I've said it before and I'll say it again, Cold always feels the same. And maybe nobody knows what I'm talking about. And maybe I don't know what I'm talking about. But I know it's true ( Read more... )

Well today was Thanksgiving. I'm glad I don't have on of those families where we go around the table and share what we're thankful for. That would fucking suck. Cuz what would I say? I'm thankful that I've been waiting all day for Will to show up? For some reason being let down this time seems more serious than all the other times. Especially after ( Read more... )

Well I haven't written on here in forever. The baby was born, his name is Adrian James (but if you call him AJ I'll fucking kill you). Things at home have been, well, working out. There are about a million things I'd like to change and about another million that I personally have no control over, so it's a lot to deal with daily. But things have ( Read more... )

has anyone else noticed that this whole myspace thing has gotten a little out of control? myspace is mentioned on the news almost daily. the news!! we're in the middle of a holy war, and the media is completely consumed with myspace?! whatev, i'm still about to update my profile ( Read more... )

These last few days have sucked, but things are (kinda) looking up so that's good. Oooh I just had one of those contraction thingies, but if you know anything about having babies, you know that having one contraction means nothing. Some days, having 20 contractions means nothing. It's probably for the best that I stay in the house most days, ( Read more... )

I am so emotionally and physically drained from today. I didn't really do much, just normal stuff but my mind has been in overdrive thinking about the decisions that I'm gonna hafta make in the next few months. It's killing me, really, I just wanna freeze time and change everything so that it is right. But I guess there really is no "right" and ( Read more... )

I went to the doctor today to learn that I have made NO PROGRESS! None. H even said "I'm sorry dear" like he really felt bad for me and just wanted to will my cervix open. Everyone in the office thought I would have delivered last weekend, and the ones I didn't talk to yesterday looked really suprised to see me. I was in the shittiest mood. But ( Read more... )

well in case you were wondering my baby has decided that he is not being born right now. BAD BABY!! i think if i get any bigger my bellybutton will become a black hole which can be used to travel to the 13th dimension (whatever the hell that is) and to parallel universes and all that good stuff ( Read more... )

i have decided that on sunday night, i will go into labor and the baby will be born sometime on monday. maybe if i think hard enough about it, it'll happen. it's possible, right ( Read more... )

yeah i've definitely just lost my mind. it's not bad actually. i'm just ridiculously happy, and i have every reason in the world not to be. if you piss me off, i'm gonna scratch your eyes out, or give you a biting look (i'm perfecting the "mom" glare), but i'll still be SOOOO HAPPY! maybe girls have it good afterall. i always thought that the pms ( Read more... )