I have a lot to say ( Read more... )

I don'tk now why I did it.

I know why, because I fucked up and lost the house. I'm nothing now. I'm worth nothing to them. I'm done, I'm over. A waste of space.

But I'm glad I'm alive.

Not really, if I was dead Emma could get money from that somehow. I don't wanna leave them, but I'd be with them when they dreamt, and that's all I needed. I ( Read more... )

I pulled a Jess and left. There is a lot reason why but the main one ISN'T Chris. I know it's a lie, but I just flipped out. What if it isn'? I give that girl EVERYTHING. I give up work for her. I take care of our kid..I do all I can. And she does that ( Read more... )

Beautiful colors that came for you ( Read more... )

I hate fighting. I always fought with my Mom and now it's Emma. Just little things, turning into big things. It makse me wonder why I'm trying, she's not helping. But..it's getting better. Last night, we talked, and spent some time together. Riley stayed at her Grandma's. We went to the park yesterday.

Darcy's house needs help.

i hate updating

Haven't been around lately, working so much. Paying for everything.

Emma and I haven't spoken since that night, after we made love, she had to bring up another guy. What the hell is up with that? I love her, more than anything, and she has to bring up Chris. Makes me think, but she's not like that. It's hard to talk to her, because I don't know ( Read more... )

Babies take up everything. Time, money, attention. But it's worth it. Riley is everything I've ever wanted. I never felt like I truely fit in somewhere, or I had a place where I felt like home. But when I look at her and I hold her and smell her I know that she's mine, forever. and that I can watch her grow up and be around her and I know that she' ( Read more... )

I have a daughter.

She's perfect. She's everything. I hold her and she's amazing. She looks just like Em.

Riley Hope.

How the hell am I going to do this?

it's almost here. we don't know if it's a girl or a boy yet, i want to know but emma doesn't. i'm not gonna lie, i'm freaked out. just..i never wanted to be a dad, until she told me ( Read more... )

baby drama ( Read more... )