I carry your heart with me( i carry it in ( Read more... )

I don't know how to tell you how i feel. I swear i'm trying. It's so hard when you are used to going through, life, closed off when talking about these things. The truth is, is that i never used to be this closed off with you. It has just started recently, when you reaction has changed. I feel like you are giving up on me. Like you are saying in ( Read more... )

And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breathes as I said to myself that I'd already taken too much today
As each descending peak of the LCD took you a little farther away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a ( Read more... )

I was thinking about what our modivational speaker said today. That there was at least one person in the audience that wishes he or she wasn't alive, that they wouldn't wake up in the morning.... that tugged at my heart, because that person is me....

Love, *Amanda

The things in my head never come out the way i plan, i wish that they would.
Say exactly what you want, not having to worry about consequences, but doesn't everyone want that.

I hope that my mom lets my go this weekend, i really need it. It would make more sense anyway. I also hope that she lets me go to girl's camp.I think that it would be fun. I'm ( Read more... )

Searching on the wire for a wire, for a peace of mind, like the spiders in the corners that are never there, to the one, to the magic sun. you're not that bright now, but you will be someday soon, and you will fall in love with the moonlight.

So come on, come on and say so, come on, come on and say so.

If God was on the radio i know he'd say to thee ( Read more... )

I'm doing a pretty good job of keeping myself occupied between homework, watching my sister, and working. I hope i meet my goal for jamie's birthday present. I haven't really got to hang out with anyone this week though, hopefully that will change.

Two to one
Static to the sound of
You and I undone
For the last time
And there this was
Hiding at ( Read more... )

I had the strangest dream last night. I need to write this down before i forget it.
Ok so my boyfirend( someone else) comes back from jamaica early( jamies actually there) to surprise me( which Jamie likes to do). He kisses me and suddenly i have these flashbacks of jamie. i'm confused because i have no idea who this person in my flashback is at ( Read more... )

Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile

And you use it only for me

Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile

And you use it only for me
So use it and prove it

Remove this whirling sadness
I'm losing, I'm bluesing

But you can save me from madness

Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile

And you use it only for me

Nobody knows it but ( Read more... )

It's not that i'm bored, i just don't feel motivated. All i want to do is read (a certain book). I check my email constantly. If i don't read i sleep. All i do is think about Jamie. He's in jamaica right now and he won't be back until monday. i can't stand the fact that i won't be seeing him or talking to him for a week, now it's down to 6 days. I ( Read more... )