I see the imperfect perfectly. I see everything I always wanted to know now. I am a success. I can do it. I am thankful for everything I have and I deserve it all. I am happy.

So every once in a while I try to veiw my life from the outside, take a step back and see everything from an onlookers perspective. Well I did that this week and I didn't quite like what I see. The path I used to walk was a lonely one but it was always strait. I feel like somewhere along the way I took a wrong turn. I am leading myself down a road ( Read more... )

My eyes are tired from crying. I have no idea how this happened, no one has ever said the words "It's over" to me before. The ends of things are so difficult. I've never before done enough damage to something for it to end indefinitely. What do I do from this point on? Do I wait until he speaks to me again? Do I forgive myself and forget that this ( Read more... )

"In the meantime, I can tell him a few things about good jests. A really funny joke is usually at somebody else's expense. And the problem with that is that in this life "somebody else" has a way of shape-shifting into a personal pronoun. A me for instance-or a you ( Read more... )

and i don't know you anymore ( Read more... )

I wanna be someone who knows exactly where they're going, never needing to stop and ask directions ( Read more... )

Skin on skin, i smiled at you, those connected words well they’re just background noise, you caught my heart, i'm here now, ready for the taking,feel your soul, but i find it so hard to grasp the words, searching for something that's not there, desperately trying to form a bond, a bond that can't be broken, time they say; it heals all wounds: the ( Read more... )

I try too hard. These words passed his lips but I already knew he would say them.

Looking for someone to hide in.

I have spent so much time holding everyone else to impossible standards, blaming others for my own misgivings. To forgive others is to forgive yourself, or so I've heard ( Read more... )

Things I want to be:
artist
lover
friend
sucessful
loved
enriched
motivated
happy
accepted

Things I am:
passionate
depressed
thinker
emotional
needy
separate
analytical
critical
self-conscious
hidden