Comments | ignitesthenight: Might as well just get to the point, eh?

ignitesthenight

Might as well just get to the point, eh?

Dec 07, 2005 14:21

Yesterday I had a complete mental breakdown. In all actuality, I've been on the verge of one since September. Hard to believe I can survive through two whole months before I actually let myself believe that was what I was thinking ( Read more... )

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tiger_kittie December 7 2005, 23:33:06 UTC

I know this probably doesn't mean anything coming from your little sister but I care about you. And I know you most likely wouldn't want to talk about anything with me but I would always listen if you did. I can relate to a lot of what you said in your post because I have gone through most of those same emotions--which sounds cheesy and one of those things that "always come up" but it is true. So when you want/need to talk and I'm the only one available at the time, don't think of me as a sister but just as a person to talk to. I won't even say anything if you don't want me to.

"I've never been good enough. For anything. It's true, don't tell my otherwise unless you can give me strong, unarguable evidence"Also, I don't know really how strong or unarguable evidence this is but I have always felt not good enough to our parents because I'm not you. You were always the one getting first prizes in model competitions(with the exception of two that I can think of, or always getting the better grades(which I'm realizing more now that I am on ( ... )

m_crowley December 8 2005, 00:18:03 UTC

Rebecca Adams, you held my hand when I thought I was going to die. Most people would have backed into a scared little hole and withdrawn totally from the scene, but when I managed to get out your name you answered me and told me you were there. I felt so horrible as they were taking me away that I had to leave you standing there, not knowing what to do next ( ... )

paladina December 8 2005, 01:21:26 UTC

Um, I know that at least in my opinion you've been a great president of RPGS. The meetings are chaotic but fun and full of information. I love the new organized RPGS and all the new ideas you've come up with and headed.

I think you've accomplished things in your life, but they aren't that obvious or have clear plaques or whatnot. Which doesn't help when you want reminders of your accomplishments, unfortunately.

It is quite possible the food is worse this year.

Sorry if this makes no sense... dominating_101 December 8 2005, 02:25:27 UTC

I wish I had something to say, but alas, I don't know anything helpful. Except, I totally understand the gist of what you're saying, even if my thoughts on my own life are slightly different. It's weird to think that I've only known you for less than a year...and for most of that time I've been in a different state. You're an awesome person. You're right that I don't know a lot about you other than the superficial, but that doesn't mean I don't care. I'm just horribly bad at talking to people about important things. You know, I can't think of anyone who really understands me; the whole me, not just the little bits that I let people see. (Little known fact: Bethany bursts into tears when forced to say something personal about herself. She doesn't understand or like this fact, so she tends to stick to superficial topics of conversation.) So, I know what you mean about retreating into yourself ( ... )

Re: Sorry if this makes no sense... ignitesthenight December 8 2005, 02:32:14 UTC

Nah, it makes sense. Really, it does. Don't worry too much about it, really. I don't feel like everyone should be able to know these things but...no one does. So..meh. Just as hard as it is for you to explain...same here.

My campus box is 0850. Or, seeing as I won't be here for a month starting Saturday, I can e-mail you my home address. but I haven't an e-mail for you.

I will now go back to my final. That should have been done hours ago.

Re: Sorry if this makes no sense... dominating_101 December 11 2005, 20:53:02 UTC

botany_2001@yahoo.com

slashaddict December 8 2005, 05:14:20 UTC

We're living the same life. I care about you and I'm here for you. You have my phone number, right?

magicnme December 8 2005, 05:37:17 UTC

ICON LOFF!

ignitesthenight December 8 2005, 05:43:47 UTC

Oh man. I know. It's crazy. I do have it.

Will you be back in Sarasota any time over the holidays? I have to go back this weekend, and back to my lovely Target job. If you're in town, feel free to give me a call and we can do something. Otherwise, we should do something when I get back in January.