So, yanno... things are getting better slowly. I'm getting my strength back, remembering just who I am. Trying to change in ways, just... trying to get by, I guess. lol. I've been making a point to smile as much as possible. *nods* Having fun has gotten easier, no need to fill a void with drugs... can you beleive? I guess for a while it just ( Read more... )

Tonight, was one hell of a night. I spent all day moving out of my apartment, afterwards picked Kyle up to run to Tuesday's... Ryan Vidrine is there. Not that big of a deal, o.O Just odd. Everything was ok though, no BIG deal... I got to Kyle's and, um... GAvin is there. I was just like O.O We talked... He enlightened me on some things... not ( Read more... )

I tossed and turned all night, and Tim Curry came to me in a dream. lol... I think he was trying to tell me something.. but I know not what. He had a package... he sat down on my kitchen floor at the apartment and opened it, and untied a bag that was inside the box, and another bag inside of that... but he dissapeared... and I woke up before I ( Read more... )

I have a job interview Monday. It's at the Earl K Long, I'd be doing clerical stuff... but still, it would be a big help yanno. ok....that is all.

I had a great time yesterday, hanging out with friends, went to the movies, even had a few beers... but by the end of the nihgt I check my fucking myspace, whch I may be coming to hate due to such events, and there's all of these messages about how he needs me and hows hes changed and he hasn't done anything in "3" days and he's "detoxed"... but it ( Read more... )

Things are different now, for the better I suppose. I don't have an apartment anymore... and still no job... I can't smoke pot anymore(in order to ACTUALLY get a job)... time to pull my life back together. I don't have Gavin anymore, due to our nasty, difficult breakup. I'm not saying I regret that at all, if I'd have stayed it would have been ( Read more... )

I'm trying slightly to get me act "together", so they would say... I got over the mountain of nasty chores that lived wihin my home, and I feel a million times better for having done it. Also, I'm at mom's doing laundry at the moment... Tommorow I will be putting in job applications(god do i need one!) ..getting desparate, so I guess I WILL get a ( Read more... )

I'm at school, waiting to see if one of my teachers is actually going to show up today. I haven't seen him in a while, he's been missing a lot, and I've been missing a lot. Seems every day I come he misses. Fucked up ( Read more... )

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I am trapped. I feel like a POW. I can't say much, but I can say I'm not happy. *hangs head*