so im the only single person out of my group of friends. and its literally kililng me. its so bad. im so fuckin desperate. its pathetic. i just put myself out there all the time and find all the wrong things ( Read more... )

I have come to the conclusion that thunder storms are absolutely amazing ( Read more... )

my life is just work lately. i guess im fifty fifty bout stuff lately. im pretty content with what i have in my hand. granted, there are a few things i would absolutly love to change. 1. being my weight. my knee is holding me back but i think im just using it as an excuse. im a wicked emotional eater and i know it. 2. i wish i was more comfortable ( Read more... )

so yesterday i received the news about torri. and even though i barely knew her, her death really hit me. just in general. i know how close people were to her and i nkow those people. like laura and derek. and the thing that keeps hiting me over and over again is the fear of losing a friend, not to mention a best friend ( Read more... )

so i went to the cardiologist today. i had an ekg done and some other tests. blood work and what not. i have high blood pressure. nothing i didn't know already. i have to go back in two weeks to get an echo done (its like what pregnant woman get done (ultrasound) but its done on my heart) to see if my murmurs are being caused by something new. ( Read more... )

so lately, i've been feeling odd ( Read more... )

so being "grown up" sucks wicked bad. All life is about is paying bills. whenam i supposed to live. oh ait, to live i have to pay. fuckin owing more than 1000 in bills and thats just jan-march. wtf. i have two jobs. and i stil can;t pay my bills. wtf ( Read more... )

its official, i'm an obsessive dork.

you all know it. go on you can say it.

whatever bitches, i have a hot bag.


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Once upon a time there was a boy.


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My life so far isn't going to make much of a move. That's something I've always thought about. If my life were a movie, how would i want it to end? Does someone swoop in and carry me off into the sunset? Does anyone have to? Can't i be the swooper? Why so i have to be wait to be chosen ( Read more... )