its sad but i really forgot livejournal existed until friday. when the love of my life broke my heart and kicked me out of his apartment and out of my beautiful perfect (finally) life.  we were sitting on the couch friday afternoon, high watching tv like any other day, our cute little kitten was playing under our feet. i could tell there was ( Read more... )

things are alright. ben and i are really really good, i love it. halloween was lazy, i put on my french maid costume the second i woke up, had lots and lots of sex, and cuddled on the couch all day.  Saturday i went to my moms, god drunk got drugs, lost my debit card and my shoes, then went back to bens and watched californication for hours ( Read more... )

im missing summer so much lately i cant stand it.  i just want to be at dave. i want to be at the gorge and i want to relive the best weekend of my life. byyyy far. i dont even think i ever wrote about going to dave matthews the last weekend of summer. i went up with shay, we met up with ben and a bunch of our friends. we camped for three days and ( Read more... )

bens being a little fuck right now. he moved into his condo today though YAYYYY. im going to try my absolute hardest not to text or call him until he decides to call me first. but i want to call him really bad and i hate it. i hate him right now GODD. he needs to chill out and stop going to the bars every night. (and day) hahh.  sick ( Read more... )

 so many things.  i got into central, which i knew i would but it was so extremely last minute i was starting to worry i wouldn't have a school to go to in the fall.  (bad thing ( Read more... )

 thursday-saturday: i was partying, not sleeping. don't really remember those days at all actually ( Read more... )

 i hatttte this. i hate that i hate leaving as much as i do.  i mean jesus fucking christ savannah you're there with him constantly for 2.5 days straight, how could you possibly feel this horrible just because you've been away from him for like two hours.  can you say pathetic ( Read more... )

 caitlin- "ben just found out he has chlamydia ( Read more... )

 im sitting in bed sniffing and coughing up my life ( Read more... )

im scared
im pissed
and i feel like throwing up right now

well, fuck.