wow it's been a really long time since i've written in here. i needed to write in there though because my myspace has lately become the most popular of my writing outlets. and i don't really need certain people reading this one ( Read more... )

ok this is a quick update on here to say i'm going to update more later, probably w/crankiness... lol. but oh well. here's a quiz result i got lately that i thought was pretty funny ( Read more... )

so i'm feeling really crabby tonight ( Read more... )

oh my god... i have not felt so bad like cutting myself in such a long time.
every time i look at my leg i'm like, no not again, i can't do that to myself.
but oh the thoughts of the relief...
it's all right. i just puked instead.

i actually slapped him this time. wow.

note to self: sleep in sweatshirts and pants. and always wear ugly

i can't wait until i finally get to have sex with someone in love with me ( Read more... )

skinny-dipping is fun ( Read more... )

so i've felt really crappy today... i think a lot of it is the fact that i've been having nightmares for the past week or so. really bad ones. very vivid, gory, scary, creepy, you name it, i've had it. so i can't go to sleep until like 1 or 2, then i wake up all between 3 and 7 with various nightmares. then i can't fall back asleep (or don't ( Read more... )

wow... it's funny... all this time i was giving the drugs credit for making him an asshole. no. the answer is no, carin... he's just a jerk all by himself ( Read more... )

woooooooooooooo....................... buzz buzz buzz.............buzz buzz buzz................ wooooooooooooooooooooo

ok so three days with him is enough to make me wanna cut myself...
ain't gonna happen though.