nothingness

[ihateme_die]

this boy, brandon, still likes me and is convinced that im in love with him too, jsut hiding it.
it is really getting old . he is way to emotional and i just would like to be friends so i can help him but i dont think thats gunna happen
ahhh so much stuff going on but i dont feel liek typoing sooryy oh wait no body cares so nevermind

Comments

Cycles

[oldcookieman]

This guy Brandon sounds like he is into constant chaos in a relationship. Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. How can you help him if he won't accept what he is doing is posioning the relationship? Unless he gets to a point where he realizes the only relationship you want, or can have with him is as a friend, there is no future for the two of you in a relationship. Sorry if I am preaching, but it just seems so obvious to me ,looking in from the outside. We can't make someone into what we think they ought to be, just because that is our perception of them. They are a certain way. People can change, but they have to change; we can't make them unless they want to do it.

Hi

[oldcookieman]

Hey, how about an update?

Hey

[oldcookieman]

Hi. Are you okay?

Re: Hey

[oldcookieman]

Do you think she only comments when she feels bad???

long time, srry

[ihateme_die]

he he he
yeah mostly i only comment when im sad cause when im not im usually busy...srry
but also i have 2 other journals. but even when im happy i usually dont update those either
oh and i also got a myspace so its hard to update everything
but im alright
i have a new boyfriend, nate, ive know him for 3 years so its kinda wierd
but im not sure if im over brad yet and now im really worried cause i lost my virginity to nate so im scared about getting pregnent

Re: long time, srry

[oldcookieman]

It is very GOOD to hear from you. As far as pregancy, look into birth control. There are several options to choose from. Don't be a stranger.

Friend

[oldcookieman]

BTW, would you add me to your friends list???
Phil

Re: Friend

[ihateme_die]

srry i just did, i guess i just assumed i already had done that
anywho im not pregnant!!!
but nate doesnt know yet, when i told him i was worried he didnt seem to care. he said it'd be ok and he was sure i wasnt. its been almost 3 weeks since i was supposed to start and he hasn't brought it up again!
i dont think he cares about me
but why would he , hes a guy
...
cutting my life away
bleeding away the pain

Re: Friend

[oldcookieman]

He may not care about you, but how can you generalize that to all guys? I am glad you are not pregnant. Take care of yourself, and don't give up on guys or ANYTHING ELSE IN LIFE!

Re: Friend

[ihateme_die]

thanks, but its so hard not to generalize when everybody seems the same... i mean not to say i think your like that, but i dont know you really, so how would i know. its better to assume the worst of people that way they can never disapoint you