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 Ok so I'm going to update, I havn't felt like it in a while:

My new glasses are lovely, even if I don't think that half the time so I refuse to wear them if I don't have to... They make me look like Lisa Lobe and dispite what Chris and Jordan claim they don't make me look catholic school girl hot. UM, got my hair cut, wow.. it's all layered and ( Read more... )

 Wow.. I have all these stupid things I want to say to people but I won't, I don't know.. if it comes up. I need to get this off my mind. This is what fucking singing oasis does to one after a few hours, but it soudns killer with the mic through the Crate with reverb on : Every bullet is a different person:

There are many things that I'd like yo ( Read more... )

I start detox tommrow.. how fcking lovely. Oh well, maybe i'll start feeling better. Dtox, i hope I make it through the whole day...

anyway

that guy i like, the one that apperntly likes me, i saw him today, it was odd, he likes like it but doesn't do anything about it and im starting to get pissed. oh well.

Im just in a good mood cuz i got some ( Read more... )

Chris and I spent ALL day on the phone yesterday until 10:30, he makes me feel alot better about how a certain someone likes to be a womanizer and I just sort of fell into that whole pit of drama.... I'm still innocent, at least I belive so. The only thing that makes me plauged with guilt is my acutal feelings for the boy, and how I can never ( Read more... )

Oh my this weekend was interesting..lol. Franced rocked, we had a great time at eurpoa park, and that night sort of got in a little trouble, the bus ride was purdy funny, I was forced to go on extremly scary roller coasters but thats ok because the guys made me so they had me sitting the middle.. Even though kevin dragged me to sit in the front ( Read more... )

Right before i was suppose to be knocked unconsceince for the night, it hit me. Wow full blown insperationg.. Emerson is my poetic hero <3

This is how I feel about everything :::

Just another thought, just another dream,just another wasted hour, nothing turns up like it seems.

Being told that to our hope we all hold key, now everything is gone, and no one to blame but me deeds,

Distractions that block the way, want to keep going but they all call stay. just another thought, just ( Read more... )

 Ok

I said FUCK going to school today, I need a day to myself, so I can sit at home, organize all the music on my computer and stick it on my ipod. ( just starting that could be a good hour long job).

I"m seriously thinking about deleting this jounral and just starting over. I've grown too much from when I first started it, and as I countine to ( Read more... )

                               Well this morning is filled with a very attcrative somber silence. My eyes being the only ones awaken, everyone else is voaging through the dreams of self consceince. There is something extremly simple., yet beutiful about early in the morning, right before the switches places with the moon and the stars sleep until ( Read more... )