Ya so its vacation, and I'm having a pretty shitty one at that. All i've been doing is sitting around and watching movies. I had to get seven yesterday to catch the bus to my jv hockey game and the other team didn't even show up. So I had to get up early for no fuckin reason. What the fuck. The only thing that has made me happy this vacation is ( Read more... )

I just watched the movie Harold and Kumar Go To White Castle and it might be one of the funniest movies I have ever seen. You've probably heard of it so I'm not gunna tell you the story line. It made me think though that my life is pretty fuckin' boring. I don't do anything except sit around on my fat ass. Maybe if I wasn't a fat ass I could do ( Read more... )

Hey guys its me of course. I just played a jv game and I feel so fuckin tired. Iv'e had either two games or two practices 5 out of 7 days a week for the past few months. I'm pretty much dead on my feet. I don't know if I'm gunna play high school hockey next year. I don't know should I? Tell me what you think ( Read more... )

Pain is something that comes and goes but is always a part of you. People try to hurt you and make you feel bad. I control the pain that other people try to give me by doing things that i really don't talk about. Maybe pain is something that changes with every person. People deal with pain in different ways. Some people deal with pain better than ( Read more... )

Me and my parents got in a fight. It was a about somethin stupid I don't really remember what it was. It was about homework or something shitty like that. My mom said that I was a horrible person and something in my brain turned off, and all of a sudden I like being called horrible things. I liked to be humilliated. As weird as that sounds it's ( Read more... )

I hate being a pretender. I have to pretend to be happy when I really feel ike shit. I feel like I have to wear masks everday. I have to act different around people our they will get suspicious. I wish I could just act myself for once, the way I really feel. Sometimes I don't know wether to act the way I want to or act the way other people want me ( Read more... )

This year has really sucked so far for me. I lost the only thing that was really important to me and now i feel like i have nothin to live for. I know that's not true but that's how i feel. Almost nuthing will make me happy again.