how much i dont want to be here 
i have to 
this is where i live

ill be the last one standing.

and then 
"we"cried. 
save me.

so where did i leave off.

well im am in Orlando Florida
for the second time this year 
its weird how things come together right
?
its weird how i can sit here with so much on my mind and still have nothig to say 
i dont wanna go home 
but i dont want to stay here 
this is my journey 
and my life 
so how come there is so much out there holding me back from ( Read more... )

i can feel my mind 
WONDERING again... 
there goes my life running in opposite directions. 
who i am and who i want to be.

i feel in love today. 
haha.. the hott ABC camera guy,
i hope he can make my dreams come true. 
i truely need to be saved. 
and get me a job at the X games. 
just what i need. 
a break in this routine. 
this feels so good.

i am so happy ( Read more... )

This is officially unofficial...
we r moving to Arizona in a year.

and then i cried.

and the PISTONS need some help.

Im so tired of all this petty bullshit. 
but somehow i still let alot of it bother me. 
wtf.. 
to say the least im not satisfied. 
and im jealous. 
" right now all she wants is a MAN, with a big ole heart."

SOMEDAY... my dreams will be reality, my petty issues will be just that.. BULLSHIT. 
till that day... im confused..and disturbed.

florida 19 days... ( Read more... )

Lately?
i am in heart with life. 
Florida is all mine. 
May 26th-31st
w/ my T.
i.think.we.can.make.it.
i am in heart with
the PLAYOFFS 
how amazing.
PISTONS

so alls i wanna say... 
UR R A LAMEO 
who called this? 
i so called you out.

and i cant wait for this to become a reality.. 
Maybe ill never come home.
"they will find out why we dont trust them"

im so sorry ( Read more... )

Stop right there...

this is where i lost it. 
this is how i picture myself. 
standing outside of your door soaking wet in the rain. 
asking for your forgiveness. 
i want it so bad.

and all i can see is.. you 
a. slamming the door in myface. 
b. storybook ending... you sweep me off my feet.. again.

who i am hates who ive been.. 
i dont want you know where i ( Read more... )

Okay wait. 
Time Out. 
...and im the liar.. 
shh... look in the mirrior and tell me what you see

ANYWAYS.. 
SUPERCROSS 
is going to absolutly amazing. 
more than amazing 
way way more. 
meeting CHAD REED 22 tonight 
with jessica and BOWMAN. 
hopefuly more pros.

okay im taking a time out again?
you blow my mind.

More updates on sun 
AFTER the SX 06

oh babay ( Read more... )

I am so Happy 
and i am boy crazy. 
haha i think we all are.

Tikki bobs last night was such a great time 
i love getting out.. dancing my little heart out 
having no cares what so ever 
its such a beatiful thing 
no more lameo scramo for me 
i have the best dance partner. 
round two tonight.. 
oh wait what round are we on now?
i d k 
all s i know is 
FAWK S.A. ( Read more... )

im ripping my hair out. 
the root of all this is inside me 
i pulled the curtain on the hurtin and am not coming out 
but this is hurting me worse
its keeping me up to all hrs of the night 
WTF 
and sometimes i just wanna cry. 
but im stubborn and not the brightest crayon in the box when it comes to this stuff 
i cant handle myself alone
cracking jokes and ( Read more... )