Life ( Read more... )

the one thing that i could bitch at in highschool ( Read more... )

so here i am again.. Orlando Florida ( Read more... )

im lonely, im cranky and im emotional.
and yes, its exausthing losing my own game.

i often feel myslef in an ego vs. reality battle.
but this isnt MY reality, this reality sucks.

slut 
-noun
1. a dirty, slovenly woman.
2. an immoral or dissolute woman; prostitute.

Hmm... try again.

Ive never encountered a problem shopping didnt cure.
Ive never felt so lost, so helpless
Ive never felt like a Hero and a Criminal

i never thought i could hit this low.
my life is full of nevers.
i CANNOT BELEIVE everything that has been going on.
ive never been so scared. the sound of the phone ringing makes me cry, shake and wanting to run away.
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So who and the hell wants to know whats on my mind?
ive been busy/ not.
surgery went well
besides the PUKING STIFF SORE SWOLLEN NASTY knee
ill always battle.
im tougher than most
i can promise you that.

i dont work at luckys anymore.
FAWK that place,
its all in the name of RESPECT
if you dont give it to me i wont give it to you.

i got a 2006 EQUINOX
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ACL update:

Surgery July 5th!

finally!

i decided that i hate the court system and everything that has to do with it. 
fuck this
rights? what rights, do we really still have?
parental rights..?
whats the POINT of a paternity test 
when my brother is unable to claim his baby for his own 
because another "mans" name is on the birth certifcate. 
so MY beautiful neice 
has to grow up with a scum ( Read more... )

im so childish. 
its weird, almost. 
im looking back at how far
i have come. 
and i thank the people who helped me get over my fears
and get me to the point im at now. 
how i NEVER want to be that immature again 
Stop: take a look around. 
and as bowman would say 
" amber go find reality"
although still a child at heart 
i am much more mature than i thought.

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