I just paid off 2 bills completely, paid my mom all the money I owe her, and only have a balance left on two bills with a combined balance of less than $80 and I get paid on Friday. And I still have a little bit of money left! And a full gas tank! And I'm doing better in Italian than I give myself credit for. How happy am I? I can't even explain ( Read more... )

I'm happy. :)

I love being able to say that. Despite school and work and everything, I'm happy.
And I can't say those three scary words yet, but I know I'm feeling them. Look at me, all growed up.

I don't even know what I want to say. I just feel like I should write something. I'm going to apply to be an orientation guide for the summer. They pay like $3000 throughout the course of the summer and you get to live rent free in Stevenson (for you non-NIUers, that means air comditioning and really big rooms) and they feed you. It's a pretty good ( Read more... )

I look forward to talking to him, I get bummed when I don't talk to him. I am so excited that he's coming here and I can't wait for that weekend to come. I actually smile when he says nice things and I saved a text message he sent me. I guess that means I got it bad, right?

Damn. I hate that.......

This sucks.

I'm so happy when I think about it but then I really think about it and it just bums me out so much. What's a girl to do.....

This just sucks

I feel like typing again. I'm going to tell some secrets ( Read more... )

I feel like typing but I'm not really sure why ( Read more... )

Fuck him. I am officially done. Forever. I don't think I've ever felt so much hatred for one human being. I didn't think it was possible. I was wrong.

So now that I'm here, I miss everybody. I don't really know what else to say. I wish my mom was here....I miss her the most. But I like school. And I'm going to speak Italian. It's going to take a few years. But I'm gonna fucking do it.

ONE MONTH. Officially. Who's excited? I'm excited. Really excited. I can't wait to go back to school. And now I'm a little less angry about it. I was so ready to get out of here a couple weeks ago. I still am, don't get me wrong, but now I'm kinda just excited to do the whole going away to school thing again. I should be getting my letter soon ( Read more... )