more things I love because today is rad ( Read more... )

telling me that she feels well enough to go out.

So we shall see if this is a date or not.
Dating is so weird.
I kind of like it.
But I kind of don't.

why the fuck am I so neurotic?

So I may have something that resembles a date tonight. not really sure if it's a date or just hanging out. And she is sick as am I. However, she really wants to hang out. So I am thinking that maybe it is a better signal that it's a date IF she does decide to suck it up and go out because I myself, if I was just hanging out as a friend with a ( Read more... )

I love cute girls ( Read more... )

I hate LA. Just in case anyone wanted to know. I COULD NEVER live there. I would die. When i first get there, I take my dyke self into the bathroom to simply make sure I didn't look like a total drunk who had been drinking and in an airport or on a plane for 3 hours. in the bathroom, three girls at the mirrors that were all of 120 lbs, about 5 ( Read more... )

yesterday was weird and amazing at the same time. I felt like I have been able to clear the air... or at least pretend it is clear while it kills me a little bit inside to see you because you are so adorable ( Read more... )

I might live... seriously. I was beginning to have such a hard time and I think I talk to her more now than I did when she was here (?!?!?!). But I am going there... FINALLY, and the flight isn't costing me SHIT which means that next month, going to San Fran around christmas time, to meet her is going to RULE!! YAY! THAT is what I want for ( Read more... )

I have decided. and suspenders with my ruffly shirt are even better ( Read more... )

I wonder why I think my life sucks so much and get so down?

last night... gossip, wine, horrible horror movies after the body exhibit with the best company EVER.
tonight... awesome movie even if I am going alone.
tomorrow... weekly happy hour with... the "femme" girls.
thursday... Maybe pho with angie??? kate bornstein signing, lick or the trucks ( Read more... )

is all the literature etc, on the development of a butch identity in the lesbian community. What about the development and comfort of a femme identity or someone who doesn't identify as either? I am having the hardest fucking time here. everyone perceives me as being femme no matter what I wear, or how I act, etc even though I do not view myself ( Read more... )