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To be footlose and fancy free...
Being so wrapped up in the regular ongoings of life, I tend to forget who I really am and what it feels like to have a simple, laugh-out-loud good day. And I think that for a very very long time I have been so wrapped up in trying to solve everything, be everywhere, take care of everyone, and please everybody, that I pushed my joys and happiness ( Read more... ) -
When sleeping is overrated and the night ticks away...
I can't sleep. Going on the fourth night in a row where I am up into the wee hours of the night with so much consuming my every thoughts. I want to turn that ability of my brain off sometimes because I would not only be able to sleep well but I would also be able to just be as opposed to having think about every g-damn move I make in this life. I ( Read more... ) -
Read I Hope This Finds A Way Into Your Heart...
I wrote him a letter to fully explain all of the thoughts and feelings that have consumed me over the past few years [and by him, I mean the one guy who has been my complication "for like EVER"]. Though I lack the courage to confront him and say this all in person, I was very impressed at how much I was able to pour out on paper. It astounds me how ( Read more... ) -
I can't do this anymore...
I find it hilarious (but not really) that friend A wants me to cut person B out of my life. All the while person B is already moving thousands of miles away from me to begin with fulfilling friend A's wishes. You two are finally agreeing about something, unfortunately you're both in agreement about my unhappiness...thanks, guys...thanks a lot =-( -
Survey in the absence of feelings...
1. If you're being extremely quiet what does it mean?
that i have a lot on my mind and wish i could talk to someone about it
2. Do you still have feelings for your ex?
the best thing i ever did was burn my feelings away for that asswhole
3. Have you ever had a one night stand?
nope
4. If so would you again? And if not, would you?
no
5. Last time you ( Read more... ) -
Au Revoir
"...She hates the sound that goodbyes make..."
Looks like I have to say goodbye:
-to you
-to my ideals
-to hope
-to a friendship
-to more???
-to promises
-to someone who mattered
-to someone who will always matter
And yet I don't want to :'-(
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I didn't think I could care this much
"Why am I so afraid of losing you when you're not even mine?"
I didn't want to care about him as much as I do now. I really fought it for a long time, trying to convince myself that to accept the friendship for what it was, was a better way of just keeping all feelings and emotions void in the situation. Needless to say, my heart won out over my ( Read more... ) -
Are you F***ING kidding me??
To add insult to injury on a day that could not possibly be anymore annoying, he sends me a company calendar and a generic note typed on office letterhead for the holidays. This to him is wishing me a Merry Christmas?!?!?! WHAT THE FUCK ( Read more... ) -
Oh Baby, All I Want For Christmas Is You!
1. Who do you want to kiss under the mistletoe?
someone special, but I highly doubt that'll happen
2. Who will you be spending the holidays with?
my insane Caribbean Family
3. Name 3 top items you want for Christmas?
1.a tall pair of Chocolate Uggz
2.luggage for Australia
3.clothing
4. Do you go Christmas light looking?
I used to many years ago. Just haven' ( Read more... ) -
You are not what I thought you were...
After the hectic day that I've had, it feels so good just to sit here and journal. I miss these moments so much; moments to just sit with my thoughts and contemplations in reflection. My life just doesn't seem to allow the time for this anymore, and it's sad because I see it as a testament to the fact that I've lost control.
Well in an attempt to ( Read more... )