Life has me dancing to another beat, another song
It is like waking in the morning but the light never shone
It is like hoping for nothing, the climax of a plateau
Wishing you were here with me,
Like a murderous tumor ravaging my soul
But comfort is all I know, the epilogue to a story barely told

support doesn't mean to disagree and tell me why you disagree. support means keeping your mouth shut, loving me and encouraging me. it isn't about trying to talk me out of it, and if your talking doesn't work, THEN deciding to support me ( Read more... )

Two years, but my thoughts have made me think less then a day... bunged up

I... ARGH. I don't know what to say. I just want out of Ottawa. Supposedly I am suppose to have a bunch of friends here, but i realize more and more that I don't. The people I know are just so self absorbed in their own lives that a friend could die and they wouldn't even notice. Am I any better, probably not. But why keep putting yourself ( Read more... )

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ( Read more... )

I love my lil bro. I took him to youthfest last night and I just prayed that God would make this real for him. I know he is young... but that doesn't stop him from God working in him. Last night I was shocked. He is already begging me to go to the next one. And when I asked him his favorite part he told me adoration... see kids are never too ( Read more... )

Ever feel like stuff is just so surreal that it is hard to believe or act that it is actually real. I guess that is what I am going through. So much stuff is going on, I guess it is just easier to think that it is make believe rather then reality. I can't believe all this happening. It puts stuff in perspective. Or makes it more crazy... i ( Read more... )

I feel so disconnected to everything right now. I mean all i do is work and lie in bed... literally that is all i do. I have nothing to do, no where to go except home to bed. I am finding it harder and harder to find reasons why I should get up in the morning and face the world. What is the point, no one is going to be effected by the fact that ( Read more... )

I hate the winter, I hate my job, I hate my the fact that the world sucks, I hate hating things. I just want to curl up in a ball and sleep till winter is over cause I have a feeling this is going to be a long and hard winter to get through. I don't know if i'll make it...

So teaching has taken over my life. It seems like every waking moment of every waking day is consumed with planning, preparing and executing lesson plans, marking or thinking about what I could do or how I could change it to make it better. How do people do this for a living?