relief thatz all i can say. ahhhhhhh i was so freaked im still afraid it suxed. omg i had SO much fun. i love 2 kiss let me just say that. omg im so happy cuz of that and u no wat else? IZZY IS COMIN HOME!!!!!!!!!! YEA!!!!!! and the day b4 my bday 2!!!!! 4 once i feel very very loved

ehhhhhhh! my party is TONIGHT! ah im SO freaked, sadly iv neva had a boy girl party (cept when i was like n preschool and somehow i dont think that counts lol) omg i found out the SWEETEST thing, omg it took me almost like a day 4 it 2 soak n (lol i like that phrase) i heard from tyler that all dustins friends were tryin 2 get him 2 go skateboardin ( Read more... )

omg this week has been SO much fun! 1st adventureland, omg it was great, even tho it was rainin and freezin rain @ that. lol by then end i was exhausted! but it was fun, dustin is SUCH a sweetheart! he won me a teddy bear. and i fell asleep on the bus ride home. so i was sleepin wit his arm around me and my head on his chest. and on the train ride ( Read more... )

okay kristi wanted a quote from me so i made 1 up:
"you never really appreciate thingz until they're gone, so you better hope you get that second chance"
life lesson learned (sadly) by experience

i hafta go home, i dont think i can stand bn here anotha minute!

this is the poem i wrote 2 days ago ( Read more... )

is there such thing as PostMenstralSyndrome? cuz i think i have it, i feel like $hit! newayz last nite dustin couldn't come hang out @ whickam wit us. and i dunno it made me really truely sad and i can't figure it out. he left me wit scott and beth which wouldn't be so bad cept scott hates me and i dunno y and i hate not bn liked! and i dunno i got ( Read more... )

oh my dear lord! so much so MUCH 2 tell, SO MUCH has happened. okay my last entree was on sat nite. well on sunday dustin asked beth if she thot i would go back out wit him if he dumped kaitlyn 4 me. so she bet him money i would. and then on monday i was sad cuz he went back 2 ignorin me. but on monday nite he wrote kaitlyn an email sayin he didn't ( Read more... )

omg itz been 4EVA since i updated this. well the last 2 weeks basically nuthin major has happened. i went 2 the dance LAST firday nite and was like depressed. cuz alex wouldn't leave me alone and i hadda c dustin and kaitlyn and i thot i was gonna die. i just kept thinkin "u did this 2 urself. how could u have let this happen" then a whole nutha ( Read more... )

I dont know how to say this ( Read more... )

life sux. life is boring. love sux. love is neva boring. I cant stand bn n love, it hurts way 2 much, but wat would life b w/o it? I understand the point n living again. It's just hard 2 remember sometimes when it feels like u dont have nemore. Yesterday, i had a mental or more like emotional break down. u could prob ask nikki or kristi, im sure i ( Read more... )