what do you do when you've completely lost respect for someone who is a close friend?? this isn't the same person everyone probably thinks i'm talking about. i don't even want to say what he did. i half don't believe it but it is so disgusting that i keep telling myself he is lying just as a joke. he has to be. he's even disgusted in himself. that ( Read more... )

I have to wake up for school in 6 hours. i fell asleep on the couch earlier today. i want to sleep so badly!! maybe it's because i stayed up until 5 last night on morgan's computer. thats probably it ( Read more... )

i dont even know why im crying

i started three new paintings
well, i washed two
and drew some lines on a third.

so for a while i was doing really good. i was sick, but not as sick as i usually get when i'm this stressed. today, though, i started having hallucinations though. it might have been a few nights ago, im not sure. everything looks so real, it's hard to distinguish sometimes. i saw a man walking outside at night that my dad didn't. its hard to say ( Read more... )

it wasnt the season finale of grey's ( Read more... )

wow ( Read more... )

elise was right. i've abused my livejournal and i'm sorry. no one reads this anyway, so i figure its a good place to get stuff off my mind instead of bothering people on xanga. xanga is kinda my short, update journal. livejournal is usually where i come to vent and work things out on "paper". it kinda lets me talk to myself and i can read over my ( Read more... )

for starters, my english teacher just said "well, fuck her ( Read more... )

"Sell My Old Clothes, I'm Off To Heaven ( Read more... )

as cliche as it is, i can kind-of sum things up with a song. or at least hit the tip of the iceberg with a song ( Read more... )