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hey guess what
P M S
yep. it struck again apparently
*see previous two posts
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i want to live alone. i want to be able to support myself ALONE. i am 28 fucking years old with a college degree and then some. i'm smart and talented and doing NOTHING with either of those things ( Read more... ) -
its a job.
some days this shit is just too much. too mundane, too pointless and petty and nit picky and disgusting. but its a goddamn paycheck. a shitty one at that, well, for being an educated 28 year old. i have nothing to complain about. it was a choice, a move i made very purposefully. i wish i knew where that original intent disappeared to, the push to ( Read more... ) -
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its here again. the quiet ( Read more... ) -
itsss c cc ccold in hhh hh here!
the heat is set to 60. to save money. i am wearing a fleece, a hoody and long sleeves, jeans and fluffy house socks and still freezing my ass off. its hard to type my fingers are so cold and my toes went numb hours ago. i miss my tiny apartment where i could run the heat on high for as long as i wanted and it only took 5 minutes to warm the whole ( Read more... ) -
moving is hard
i spent the weekend moving stuff to my new place. it was weird to crawl into bed in my new room last night. i didn't feel ready and despite all the excitement and expectation, didn't feel quite right. there are still a lot of loose ends to tie up and more stuff to move, but i will be out before the week is over. and then the conversation...ugh. it ( Read more... ) -
sit
i am going to listen to some songs... because thats all i can do right now. kind of taken back by the ache and thud and feeling hundreds of miles away. so i'll sit and and be quiet and it would be nice to just drive around just to listen and keep moving. -
soon
man oh man oh man oh man ( Read more... ) -
just a quick one
things have been picking up pace and moving right along... change is afoot and its good and I feel so stable and calm and these new thinking skills have been serving me well. Stuff I learned from Havi and from other people that hang around her site has given me a new framework to think about myself as a spiritual thing, without it being tied to ( Read more... ) -
it has a name
'stuckness ( Read more... )