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The Big Day
I'm getting married today.
I am becoming Carrie Carter.
I will really miss being Carrie Moore. -
reality, decisions and paychecks
so my foot-in-the-door-at-a-creative-agency job hasn't really given me any help with what I want to be doing for a job. It turned out to be just another dead end with some nice people hanging around and just enough perks and ease to hang on and get a paycheck. It is a sinking ship and I have known that for awhile. I was hoping to get myself into ( Read more... ) -
well, now I've done it.
ugh. 3 hours of sleep last night and not even all at once. I couldn't sleep because I was worried and scared and sad and panicking about what my role is, what do I do? what am I really feeling about it? How do I be supportive of him and protective of me at the same time? Am i blowing this out of proportion or can I just let myself feel these things ( Read more... ) -
!!!!!!!!!! apartment please.
last night i felt like working. i got home and the house was cold and the guests had the space heater so i crawled under blankets and watched movies and tv instead. boooo. at 3:40am the landlord/room mate and her guests arrived drunk and loud and crashed around the house breaking things and at 4 the other room mate got up to yell at them to shut ( Read more... ) -
afraid
this happens EVERY year. all the time really. i come up with a plan to make something great, start work to make it happen then freeze up and freak out that it is dumb and will never be what i envision it could be. So i come up with an improved plan, a great idea, something i like better and then freak out that i don't have time to make the better, ( Read more... ) -
AAAA! December already?!
so I have 11 days to get Christmas presents made for Mom Dad Elise Hannah Jackson Mike Charlene Rachel Andrew and most importantly Nick. !!! yikes. I would love more time, but at least I have a solid and good idea for his gift. I'll have to figure out in between details as it rolls out, but I think no matter what he will like the end result. I ( Read more... ) -
note.
November 24th 4:18pm
Magnetic Fields
the book of love.
"in my itunes"
a walk by and sniffling and earlier there was head hanging and being quiet and looking sad and i wonder who dropped what on whom. -
oh yippee
going to a lunch meeting with my boss to have my review. I am having a hard time trying to stomach the idea of defending this job i hate. I am dreading having to sit and have an in depth long bullshit conversation about every fucking detail of it and act concerned and invested when all i do really is sit here and survive the day ( Read more... ) -
my spot
i need to eat dinner. its 8:40 and i don't want to cook in this strange kitchen where nothing is mine. all i have are beans and rice and pasta stuff anyway. i miss beulahland. i could go sit in the dark there and eat something cheap and cozy and drink until i feel more cheery and then take a short walk home. but... i'm way up here and its too ( Read more... ) -
a good one.
today was awesome ( Read more... )