Get togethers at Ryans house make me verry happy. I love the people. it reminds their are fun good people in the world. and Ryans awsome to and Sarah fucking rocks I love her. I had fun and screamed and played and took pictures of everyone. :)

I can't tell whats real anymore.

Another day another thought of not being able to stand that school and its fucking children.

Fuck yeah for playing nirvana songs on my out of tuned gutair. Lets start a band and tour the world. That would make me increadably happy more than anything ever. Bobby said that I look happy when I play. :)

Work sucks. I'm scared of those people. Exept the one that smiles at me. Its not like one of those fake smiles. Sometimes I can't fake smile at cosomers. I just get stressed and want to go home.

I had another dream someone loved me. And I knew even dreaming that it wasnt real but I enjoyed it anyway. I wish I never woke up today. I went to bed watching Johnny Cash last night. I'm in love with his voice. IN LOVE! I had a sex dream about him. I like when I have dreams that someone loves me. Dreams are allways perfect. In my head I'll never ( Read more... )

How did my life end up this way? How did I end up this way? I shouldn't even have to ask. I'm so sick of everything.Is their a reason people don't want to be my freind or talk to me, just stare and walk by. I can't stand that place any longer. I think Kyles sick of my shit. I'm sick of their happieness and I'm sick of constintly being alone. Fuck!

I feal so alone. Like soon everyone will be gone and i will be left for dead, but I think I just left mself for dead. Its allready happening. I'm glad Im happy most of the time but somtimes i can't take things. But thats life and I accept that shit has to happen. I just miss my freinds and I'm just lonley. I'm going to eat my hot poket. Gos I hate ( Read more... )

Its sad how dependent i am of my cell phone. its my clock my phone book and well my phone. And its nice to know that no one loves me without it. Damit why didn't Tower have the Brian Stezter cd I wanted? Now I got a crappy one. Why didn't I get Johnny Cash? I suck.

The other day I went to reant a movie and the guy at Hollywood was really nice to me for some reason. He told me how he couldnt watch the movie I was renting without falling asleep and i laughed but I didn't really talk to him. It was like he tryed to make conversation and then gave up. I don't know whats wrong with me. Why can't I talk to people? ( Read more... )

I love looking at old pictures. Although it makes my soul hurt alitle. I sit and wonder to myslef Where are all of these people I used to know? Where is all the fun we used to have and love we used to share? Where is everyone now this very second and where are they when I'm all alone. I really miss Kara right now. I want to hold hands with her and ( Read more... )